had my 2.8km at the track yesterday with Aisyah. and went home straight after some situps and some stretches.
before hit my bed, i got a cold relaxing shower. shave those unwanted hairs. had a cup of tea too.. & suddenly decided to update my diary which i leave it untouched for a long time. and i started to read every pages.. in it, i wrote alot abt my previous r/ship..from how we started to date and till the day we throw our love away..he's my true&first love..it takes months for me to forget him even i told u ours is a brief one..i dont know why ive been soo down and emotional these few days. whenever i see David, he reminds me so much abt him yet they are totally diff.
i cant sleep. i felt so hopeless, restless, helpless..all the -less things..and i dont know why it keeps bothering me. tried to close my eyes but i cant..and w/o realise it, tears keep running down my cheeks.
i'm not comparing them. but after previous breakup, these words doesnt exists to me. PROMISE, FOREVER & TRUST.
when i got into new r/ship, i feel somehow happy, nervous, scared, excited..everything in 1.
i'm much comfortable with David but we tend to argue alot even on minor things. i do admit sometimes it's me being childish.. with David, i feel so secure but i dont know if this just for temporary or just for a moment..& i feel tt we are drifting apart but im trying my best to stay positive.. we need to spend more time now and then but how i wish he could understand me.
iloveyou,david!
DONT TAG ME ABT THIS POST.and dont ask me too. I♥goodbye
