• TRUST: Someone broke my TRUST again & all over again. I can trust the person fully but later I just can't do it. I change my mind, always! So, usually i BELIEVE them.
• PROMISE: I keep breaking promise of NOT SMOKING. & because of it, I betrayed Nydiah and now, she care less. I'm not a smoker, I learn it when I wanted to FEEL destress. STUPID! Okay, so now i don't trust PROMISE anymore & I don't need ppl to promise me anything.
• FOREVER: Of all why FOREVER? Cos the word hurts me. Very deeply.

I admit that I'm a bad friend & selfish. Wanna know the reason why I smoke? Why I didn't listen to them? Cos I FEEL SOO LEFTOUT. Maybe I'm not fit in. FRIENDS come & go, so hard to find someone who I can really rely on, share my doubts and problems, a shoulder to cry on.. I just don't know where they run.

Doesn't mean you didn't disappoint me in negatives things you do, I don't want to say cos I'm nothing better.. So i keep myself shut. Since so hard to stay this way, please don't ever commit anything. But it doesn't mean we gg to drift away.

What I'm trying to say is, it's my life, please don't stop me from doing anything, if you care just prove it to me. & vice versa.

Abt the COOP incident, I don't know anything until you reached thr, and tt stupid teacher asked you to go. So sorry. I didn't know it turn out so sucky.

I'm not looking forward for the chalet, I just don't feel like gg, but i got too, kill time instead of crying at nights over the same problems. But i really hope it turn out well.

Sentosa with David was cancelled, due to some reasons. Make it up another day maybe our anny!

P.S: I'm not angry with you, i just pen down my deepest feeling.

Goodnight.