Yesterday was my Brother's birthday. Wow! he hit 21! Anyway Happy Birthday to you. May Allah bless u always.. :)
I wanted to stay as much as I want but I can't. I made many mistakes too and I can't keep on gg like this, in circle. U blame me, i blame u. I still love u but i have to give him chance too.. There's so many things I can't forget abt us, while it just started with him. I didn't know I can go this far, thats why I fucked up big time. I wanted a perfect love but maybe I nvr get what I want so I left. I know I'm being so irrational. Maybe we are not meant to be together.. We are meant to be friends, i guess. & I do love him too, but he's not what u have..I chose this path, tts why. The thing is I need to realise tt it's over.
I had a hard time sleeping, and ended in bed at 4 plus in the morning and woke up at 10.. Affected my mood and everything it goes like, everyday-no-mood nye face! So sleepy and yet still got to go to work..killing time thr with nothing much to do and busy during night time only and then leave the place at 2.30 am.. fuck! It's getting too much. Lagik baek time old manager aje rather than new ones! And worst have to send the far first, and like I'm having touring, 1 hr ride.. Shit! Everynight, late!
I really pray i get the new job soon so I can start and quit this JOB. It's like 5 months alrd working thr..skjp je! So it's time to get new fresh job..
Okay anyway I woke up to The Lost Voyage, History channel. It's regarding the Sept 11, World Trade Center. Feel sorry for them. It was 2 hrs show, where some people video-ing of what happened on tt day when the jet hit the building..
later after few mins
The end.
Okay2, I gtg now, Ciasha is waiting for me. Pffftt!! I♥goodbye
