highways flew by. no sense of time.

:)

2011-09-26T13:04:00.002+08:00

I'm getting better now. Thank God. :)

and hell yeah, I'm on my new shits. Oooh!! I gotta clean up my profile here. Remove unwanted things. Life is so much different now, but I'm way too happy. Before I leave, I wanna share this video clip... mcm gerek je...

:(

2011-09-04T10:56:00.001+08:00

im trying my best to move on but ....

i try to pretend that im moving on but deep down i dont want...

i try to show that im strong to go tru but deep down im too weak for this...

i try to show you that i am moving on w someone but deep down thats not me.

i feel like i am hypocrite.

:'(

i want us to back like what we used to be. i miss you so.. :'(

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:'(

2011-08-20T22:02:00.001+08:00

its over.

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course..

2011-08-12T08:15:00.001+08:00

good morning all.. i'm otw to HTA for my 2 weeks course. im currently using blogpress.. mcm gerek je.. can blog while im travelling.. cool kan?! jakun! its been awhile since i met bf.. its like 3-4 days alrd.. hopefully this weekend i get to meet him. thats all cos im sleepy..

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lonely.

2011-08-10T21:43:00.004+08:00

things falling apart. i don't know where it went wrong.
i'm insecure, i'm paranoid and all the negative thoughts.
sighs.

i hope i can pull it through. Insya'allah.

what to update?

2011-06-28T15:53:00.002+08:00

I got so many things wanna share but so lazy to update. Don't know how to start.. and I guess I got many photos to upload and share but I think nobody's gonna read my blog. Hahaha!

Finally my kakak sedara blissfully married with her husband last Saturday. It was simple but alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. Last till eternity babe!

Okay, I deactivate my fb, IDK but I'm just not into it lately. No worries I will activate back my fb but not now laaa.. haha! Just received a call from Dzul, he's coming to my place soon. Actually he just had an accident yesterday. But nothing serious, BUT STILL!! I'm just to worry about his safety now.. :( he had minor abrassions. Fast recovery baby!

And I'm on long leave..until 6 July. 11 days off.. take a break from worklife. I need to clean my room, cos sekarang da mcm anjing branak kucing. beserak! Even my wardrobe damn messy with the clothes all pile up. So I will do it on my 1st off which is on this Friday. Muahahaha! Lazy okay!

Anyway I rent a car from Amanda's, and excited to drive around but still need to brush up after 6 months of not getting my hands on the steering wheel. I got the habit to drive slowwww.. How can.. Hahaha! Tomorrow will be meeting Boovy, Sue and Nil and after that need to return back the car by 5.30pm. But before that I need to drop off my Dad at SGH, he need to go for minor operations or surgery, about his eyes.

While waiting for Dzul to come, why dont I help my mum to sweep the floor and tidy up the house. Will come back and share the whatever photos I have.

LATER. :)

long time no blog

2011-05-31T01:03:00.004+08:00

Long time no blog.. I thought what.. Hahaha! CRAP!!

I'm being random but I miss my friend, Fiizah. She is going to give birth anytime soon. And I can't wait for her new baby. It's a boy and Fiizah already had a name for him. Faster faster!! Just met her few days back and went to Town with her friend, went for dinner and basically just walk around the vicinity. And I started to miss her plus she stay opp my blk. Meaning I can chui her. Hahaha!

Anyways, I've been busy lately with work and friends and family and of course the Boy. Almost everyday spend my day with him. Never ever cross my mind that I will regret choosing you & I never feel this blessed before. I do happy with my life right now with what I do and what I choose and WITH WHAT I HAVE. Plus the blessing we get from my parents. Alhamdulillah. :) I LOVE YOU RAJA DZULHISYAM. I wanna be there for you always sweetheart.

The jiwang part is over now.....the 2nd part...

I'm planning to go Bali this October, clearing my leave.. Off to Bali with my Boy. The easiest person that can bring along. Tak banyak ragam. Hahahaha! But still haven't check the flight and hotel. Anyway it is just a planning.

Cousin's wedding its like few weeks coming, plan to rent a car for the occasion and taking the weekend package. Gonna call her real soon to book.

What else I wanna blog? I guess my life now is not fully into blogspot cos I have twitter, do follow me there, BACKTOMINE.

:)

2011-05-05T10:10:00.003+08:00

Was away for quite sometimes, been busy... Don't know what I'm busy with. Or I'm just being lazy to update my blog.

Anyways, KL short getaway was damn fun. Managed to get rid of work for a while. We enjoyed ourselves, tried the club there. We also went to Petaling St, Masjid India, KLCC(it is a MUST), Bukit Bintang, Berjaya Times Square. What I can say is, it was damn FUN!

Alright, currently we don't have 2nd off due to deployments.

I've beenthinking what should I do with the $$$ and after thinking for few hours, I wanna get myself a Timbaland shoes like the one I bought for Yusri but it's a woman type. Agaknye ade la tuh.

If nothing happen, will be meeting Nydiah, Hafiz and Haziq together with Suhaili to celebrate Hafiz and Haziq ORD!!

That's all!

I got an appointment with Dr Ian later, changing braces. I want orange or green?!

I'm not lucky, but I'm blessed.

2011-04-21T01:29:00.002+08:00

WHO SAY MY BLOG ALREADY MATI? NO WAY OKAY!! cume busy je, tu standard. :)

The day I've been waiting is here. I'm excited, cos this will be my 1st virgin holiday with Zul. And I think this is my 1st time clearing leave for this year. Wooo! I survived since Nov' 2010, exclude the days I'm on MC.

Okay, I already pack my bag. And waiting for the time to past. Oh! Yess, nervous and scared. Hahaha! Kental pe? But serious la!

Anw did I mention that I finally found a new bf after 1 year plus being single?? Ah, I'm attached to Zul, and I'm bless to have him around me. But we still got long long long way to go, more to achieve..never deny miss my single life, but this is life. Hope this bf stays. :)

I guess I need the bed now, I'm tired mentally and physically. :(

Goodnight. x

LONG HELLO.

2011-03-20T14:10:00.002+08:00

I'm not dead yet! I love my blog. long hiatus, I know.

NYDIAH, IF YOU READ THIS, I MISS YOU!! HAHAHA!

Nothing to update.

2010-10-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

Long long time never update. Missing my blog so badly. Eversince I started to work, I got less time for my blog. Spend more time at work and on my sleep..

Been very busy with work life, friends and family that sometimes I do think I don't need this blog anymore. But I VERY THE SYG SYG backtomine! & yes, been enjoying my life to the fullest.

Well, there so many things I wanna share until I lost track where to start and what to share.

Okay thy bitches plan to club this 15th. I wanna but see how okay. Hoping I can, it's been quite sometime lorrr!!

Then right, on the 18th my sec sch mates plan for a picnic. 1st they wanna do it at WCP, then changed to Botanic Garden and latest, Sentosa.. If like that, might as well I go for tanning kan.. Farhan help me with the car rental thingy, while Nil with food. See, I'm too busy until I need their help. & hopefully, all of us can make it happen. So our plan is, we will be gg to Johor at night after our picnic thingy.

Finally, I managed to update my blog. Simple, Short and sweet.
:)

i hate heartache

2010-10-05T02:00:00.002+08:00

I am soooo gonna cry, I hate this feeling, why I fall for someone so easily and letting him to enter my life that fast??

Cos end up, I get hurt again and again. the feeling sucks. Really sucks, I did tried my best to hold and work it out but it seems you never do your part. And that part, I cant stay in your zone anymore, I don't want to get hurt again.

Better off separated. I HATE THIS FEELING.

Stop stealing my heart away.

2010-10-05T00:53:00.004+08:00

I revealed too much too soon. I am emotionally slutty.

But you stealing my heart away. :(

GOODNIGHT.

Should I?

2010-09-09T11:52:00.000+08:00

Oh, should I or should not delete this blog?

Well, I've been busy with work lately, and I got so many things to update and less time to do tt.. And then I intend to be lazy to update.

But I'm enjoying every moments with my friends when I'm away from this blog. Meet Lin and Serene at Vivo, watch GROWNS UP, funny movie! & we chilled. HAPPY FOR YOU SERENE FEN FEN, finally got urself a boyfriend, JASRIANTO who is also our squadmates. :p Ah Lin only haven't find yet. Hahaha!!

Met Ashhary also during the fasting month. Can say he is a nice guy but still early to judge. But I just love being ard him, comfortable zone la kan. Again, still early for this. Cannot say much, later at the end of the day aku lagik yang nangis.

I got a few of pictures to update too during the Iftar with my sec sch classmates, yes we did meet up after years of not catching up especially Boovy and Farhan. & we do plan for another outing right after raya, KARAOKE. Hahaha!

Ah Lin asked me not to delete this blog but I very the lazy le, or Lin!! update for me can?? Hahaha! After using this for so many years, I feel so syg to delete also.. 3-5 years of using BACKTOMINE. OR should I just start using tumblr? To create one is another thing, leceh need to sign up la apa la.. malas aku.

Okay, today is our last day of fasting and tomorrow is HARI RAYA. But I just don't have the feeling and I can't feel the atmosphere of raya. I did Almond London ytd, alone. FIRST TIME SIAAA!!

I got to run errands and be back. Grab simple heels and handbag after years of not buying it, this year I have too, even I don't really celebrate but the heels from don't know which year da mcm kurang ajar!

I will be back with photos updated and more stories. For now, just hang on with this blog.

ENJOY THE LAST DAY OF FASTING AND TO ALL MUSLIM ARD THE WORLD ESPECIALLY TO FAMILY AND FRIENDS, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN. :))

GOODBYE. <3

2010-08-29T09:43:00.000+08:00

Wooah! I've been down with minor fever, eversince I'm done with my deployment.

Right now, I'm at work using bb to update. Aahhh! I can't take it my nose, block nose babe! Hahaha!

Anyways I met up with Lin and Serene ytd, we went to Vivo, catch movie, grown ups! Very funny la! We laugh and laugh! Adam Sandler gerek!! And later break our fast at banquet, we ate a lot like normal. Hahaha! And we slacked and interogate Serene, you know what eh?! Mcm biase took photos and laugh again. Headed home after tt. Haha!

Chat with Khairul for a while, JT forever la die! And he even sang me some of JT songs! If real JT confirm aku melts!! Haha! ;p

I'm movin on to something better.

2010-08-25T21:33:00.003+08:00

FUCKED UP FEELING, HATE THIS! SYOG, done. Left with the closing which is tomorrow, 11-11.

GOD, I DON'T WANT TO FALL SICK.

I'm on some new shit
I'm chuckin my deuces up to her
I'm moving on to something better, better, better
No more tryin to make it work
You made me wanna say bye bye, say bye bye, say bye bye to her

I swear each time I try to open up my heart, they keep coming to close it back. & I thank them for doing tt. I'm tired, seriously.

Goodnight.
p.s: I miss Fadli.

I can't remember when I had a good time.

2010-08-23T02:16:00.003+08:00

We alrd plan to meet on Sunday during my off day. & I never realize it until I check my calendar. Hahaha!

We supposed to meet at 5pm, but he told me he just woke up and we extended it to 5.30pm. The actual plan was, break-fast at Beach Rd and yes we met at Lavender MRT but he decided to go to Marina Square. By the time we reached Marina Square, we tried searching for this specific foodcourt/restaurant/fastfood but end up tak jumpa. So we just sit at the stairs and proceed to Makansutra.

I saw Mirza & Fardhan but never bother to call their names since kt situ pack. Haha! & I bumped into this guy, forgot his name. The SOC boy from R20. We talk for awhile while waiting for my food.

The testing moment:

Lepak at Esplanade. We asked these 2 china ppl to take photo of us, and ade ok ade tak ok. So we decided to take ourselves.

Later we headed down to cine for movie. Thanks anyway! :) Actually I supposed to watch this movie with Lin and Serene but I don't mind watching it again, WORTH THE MONEY. =D

Thanks for sending me home. Great movie and I can't remember when I had good time. Next with my friends, I can't wait. Later then I tagged u at FB for now, cannot okay due to certain reasons. :)

But, before tt, I left with 1 morning and 1 night shift and I'm done.

SOMETIMES SOMEONE HAS TO GET OUT OF YOUR LIFE FOR SOMEONE BETTER TO WALK IN.

GOODNIGHT SWEETHEARTS!

LONG LONG WAY TO GO.

2010-08-18T15:38:00.002+08:00

I'm busy starting from today till 2 weeks time.

Sorry to those who I can't go out with. Deployment sucks but this is my job so yeah, and right after I'm done with it, Nydiah alrd like 'book' me for iftar. Then follow by Lin and Serene.

My deployment, urggh! No words can describe how tired am I, but I need to endure for like 2 more weeks and seriously, no time for family, friends except for my resting time. Cannot take it eh.. Sadly, I seldom break-fast at home and so far, last 2 days was my 1st time. What to do.. & I'm so sick with the food they provided. I mean, still can swallow but of course home food always the best. :)

Met Fad last few days on my first off day. Right after my 1st break-fast at home with my brothers, he text me and wanted to see me for awhile. Its been quite sometimes since we met. I don't know, but things turned out way better. Since we can't stay out longer, we spent the time wisely as I'm alrd look like zombie. Long for tt feeling baby! urrgh! No! I can't, I CANNOT! NOT READY. Stay this way is so much better rather than taking another step tt might just hurt us.

AND MY DEPLOYMENT SCHEDULE CHANGED. BEST! TT PART I LIKE!

I guess I need another power nap. Not enough okay eventhough I woke up at 2 pm. STILL, aku nak tido.

break-fast with Fiizah.

2010-08-15T14:27:00.002+08:00

Met Fiizah to break-fast with her and bf, plus the bf brought along few friends.

They acccompanied me, forever with my books. I wanted the WHY MEN LOVE SEX AND WOMEN NEED LOVE. But sadly no discount for tt book at Kino, so I bought a book and later went to Jurong Point Harris to get the book with discount, skali check2, the guy said nomore discount! :( Dumped one side then I got myself a good one!! :) HAPPY ABIS.

Met Dorothy ytd since Nydiah cancelled the real plan, went to Town. She bought few tops and we had Ayam Penyet Ria for break-fast. She showed me the T-PAIN app, damn funny and I find it cool la, karaoke together! Hahaha!

Oooh, tts all. Need powernap for awhile! Night shift later.

DEPLOYMENT STARTS TOMORROW.

2010-08-10T17:38:00.002+08:00

Well, deployment. Tiring but did nothing. Food keep coming in while we in our rest room.

My blog looks like it gg to die soon. Hahah!

Kinda chaos when we doing human crowd control right after National Day Parade. Everywhere, the crowd from Padang and outside too. They were like pushing here and thr, running and crossing anyhow. Sampai mcm nak give up! But, wait I still got 2 more weeks for the SYOG deployment. Tmrw will be my ICC exercise from 5-10pm. Gerek pe?! Hahah!

Now, I really miss them, badly. :(

& I've been sitting at home during my off days since I started my work. Them, very busy with work also and our work timing clash or either some of us stay far like Hougang and east side. Plus, fasting month will start tmrw but still I can't fast yet due to my menses and it keeps bleeding. & my lips! too dry and need someone to kiss, lol!

Okay, serious I miss my R22, THY BITCHES, Lin&Fen. & where's Fiizah?!

I need to do some workout!

I'M TOO TIRED TO BLOG.

2010-08-06T14:09:00.002+08:00

I've been very busy with work. But I love it anyways.

I just received my schedule card ytd night and will be deployed for my SYOG from tmrw onwards and I will be temporarily in team Bravo. But still the schedule and shift totally changed. Which means I follow the . I hate this! Serious. But when comes to deployment, I should love it cos I will be seeing my friends ard, I mean squadmates. BUT STILL, burnt le. Nevermind, endure. for a while only.

& IM FUCKING BROKE. I didn't shop this month plus I got my bonus and it's hard staying out from HTA, cos money keep flowing. TRANSPORTATION, FOOD FOR BREAKFAST, LUNCH & DINNER. Hopefully, when comes to fasting month, I can save alot. I can see I'm starting to pay these:

insurance money -$150.
handphone bill -$50.
mummy & daddy.
my own ezlink card. -$140 per month.
prepaid 128 -$30.

So? Don't always think I work in govt sector, I earn alot, I save alot. Not really okay. But thank God, I got leftover for myself, just nice till 12th.

DEPLOYMENT, DEPLOYMENT. :(

Okay, work. Been adapting to it and learning fast though. And I'm slow. Reallllll slooooowwwww!

:(

need another power nap before work.

Not easy.

2010-08-03T18:48:00.002+08:00

Being a one is not an easy job!

It's like eye opener especially I'm new, and it really scares me off when I heard about it. & seriously, I'm not prepare to face these kind of situations but I need too.

Guess, I'm too lazy to blog, nothings new.

I feel like deleting this blog. Cos day by day, my post getting boring and short. HAHAHA!

Gtg, need to keep my stamina and Im gg to run like a mad pig!

Off on weekend. (:

2010-07-31T22:48:00.003+08:00

I'm happy cos this is my off day falls on Friday, ytd la tu and today. Even though I kill time by staying at home. Spending the hours by sleeping and chatting with this new friend, AZROY SHAZWAN.

My night shift was hectic. No power nap, but I learn alot. I make many mistakes, with logsheets and road names. Cancel here and there. But I'm looking forward to learn more things and tmrw, I'll be doing Pahpah. wooo!!

Woke up and received a msg from him at msn. If you think to msg me just to make me feel tt you are still ard and still 'care', I don't need that uh. Told u, we better off this way.

I'm tired. That's it for tonight.

Goodnight.

chasing away the summer heat.

2010-07-28T01:02:00.002+08:00

Gotta work in few hours, need to wake up early. @ 5:15am? Urrh! Okay, don't complain cos tomorrow is my first time. :) excited and nervous at the same time.

R24 &R1 already passed out last Thursday and they are like having 1 week holiday now. I'm being so grateful tt my squad and R23 were on our long long leave. 3 weeks?! GEE!!

Okay random abis.

Met Lin just now at Jurong Point, gotta stay since she got something urgent and need to be back at work by 8pm which we had only 1 hour solid to spend. We went to Fig&Olive for dinner, and did some catch up. Lastly, we exchanged our gifts. & honestly, I love the gifts. Thanks Lin. But sad thing, Serene was not there. Next time and make sure u come ah Serene if not, I bite u! Hahaha!

Met Fad later, we went to Jurong East Mac. & throughout tt, we didn't talk alot which is really2 makes me feel weird. We used to talk alot but tonight seems so wrong. We had Mac, use the net, I'm busy with msn and facebook while he also did the same thing. Sent me home and tts it.

Anyway, I'm okay with it cos I know somehow one of us gotta go. We are like trying to hold on to it rather than talk abt it. I'm not gg to cry over this, cos I know I'm still young and long way to go. I want him and I can't, not now. So many exciting things gonna happen. I like him yes I do but I'm not ready for anything except my career. :) I'm more excited abt my career than excited about guys. Slowly the ONE will come. Its matter of time. Chey!

Alright, short & simple. Tomorrow my official day. (:

Goodnight.

fuck love.

2010-07-26T02:45:00.002+08:00

Guess what?

Love is pure, love is sincere, love is beautiful.
FUCK TO LOVE LA!

I never believe in true real love whatever they call it. Love? For now what I know, love is bullshit.

LUST IS EASY. LOVE IS HARD. LIKE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT. But I see nothing at all.

I do admit I got this stupid crush on this guy. But to love him? I don't think he deserve the love. Which means all guys don't deserve to be loved except they really mean it.

Wooo! Scary feeling, don't tell me, I hate guys. Lol.

Happy Birthday AZLIN! ure 24, finally. (: catch up with u soon.

Goodnight.

Rochor, Team Charlie. ♥

2010-07-24T14:54:00.002+08:00

I was praying hard tt I will get into the NPC that I really want and thank God, I got it! Hahaha!
& I'm sure, I'm happy with the result. I don't care which team I got into as long as into that NPC.

My cousin works there under team Alpha. & I alrd attached with that team before, and I like it. Anyways 3 of us went to the same NPC while Serene and Fauziah went to different NPC. Haha!

By right today is team Charlie's morning shift and tomorrow will be night shift. & I'm not sure to work tomorrow night or next Wednesday, morning? Since I still got one more off day to go. Haha, I swear I'm tired, shagged and sleepy but I can't really sleep, I guess I need to adapt to it slowly.

Suppose to meet Fad, but since he will be working later, so call it off. It's okay. & our shift thingy, thank God, we still can manage it but he will be going for course next week which means, office hours. Let see how it goes. Rumah pon dekat so it will be no problem. Hahaha!

& ya, I got a date tomorrow with Fiizah. I don't know what kind of date. Surprise ke? haha! Let's pray hard I'm not gg to work tomorrow so we can date. Plus, I'm waiting for Fauzy's reply regarding when we can start our shift, either tomorrow or next Wednesday. Hopefully Wednesday.

Gotta grab my lunch and plan what I'm gg to do after this.

Any plans?

2010-07-22T01:20:00.003+08:00

Stop! Give a break , take things slow and steady.

If he yours, he will always be, Dayah. PLAY HARD LA SIALL! hahaha!

& ya stop hoping cos it doesn't work, I doubt so. Hahaha! & I just got this feeling la, all guys cock up one. Hahaha! We see how far we go!

Well, basically nothing much, I love being attach to Alpha, especially Rochor and I would be happy if I will be posted there. Hahah! They are nice people, include my abg sedare la kan.. Nice experience and ya tmrw is at Marina Bay, got chance la kan! Hahaha! I can't wait, I mean like finally, night shift! Cos I've been doing morning shift for the past 3 days.

& sorry I've been staying away from my laptop, veru busy. Ni baru attachment not yet permanent kan. Only got time for twitter.com and fb, tu pon mcm sekejap2 la kan. not really into but trying to keep updated. Hahaha!

Tired, goodnight.

I'm blessed!

2010-07-17T23:30:00.003+08:00

I'm blessed to God with whatever I have right now. GREAT FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I'm way too happy! I deserve more. (:

I'm so over that jerk.

So yeah, my week was well spent. Went to Rebel last Wednesday with Fiizah, my long lost friend. We planned it like a week before. & I swear we danced like mad dogs, sweat like pig, especially me. Hahaha, but fuck yeah, we had hella fun plus this is our first time going together just the 2 of us. Dance all night long till dawn. The next day, my left leg, damn!! CRAMP. Lol!

& the next day which is on Thursday, some of the R22 suppose to meet at 1030am at USS. We bought 7 tickets on last Tuesday. & the boring part was, most of our time spent q-ing for rides. But worth the money. The rides were damn scary plus we all got wet! FUN, AWESOME, GREAT! & yeah, going home shagged & with my motion sickness.

Were supposed to meet Fad yesterday for dinner right after his night shift. But I don't know that he ended that late which at 10pm, ard thr. Of course, aku merajok, an hungry woman is an angry woman baby.. Haha! But thanks to Fiizah, she wanted to have her late supper too, so we met at Pioneer Mall plus she wanna borrow my this jacket/blazer/cardigan they call it. We had good time, trying to catch up with each other. We still laugh at our old old funny-lame jokes. It's nice to get in touch back with her, MY LONG LONG LONG LOST BUDDY. 15 years of friendship and still counting baby.

&& we alrd plan for our next holiday which is soo long long way, next year March? To Bali this time, just the 2 of us. NICE! & yeah, we gonna make it happen. Hahaha!

Anyways, I can feel it, the day is near, and I'm not so prepare. I haven't iron my uniform, I haven't pack my bag and seriously. NOT PREPARE! But excited to find out into which npc I'm in. Wish me tonnes of luck! (:

Now, pictures. I play with the effects. Trying out la konon nye.

IT'S A WRAP!

See, I enjoy myself!

Alright, I need to wake up early tomorrow to accompany my mum to Geylang. AGAIN. Haii...

After 3 weeks of laying egg at home, I finally went out for a jog with Yus late evening. Covered 8 rounds, and I'm happy with the timing. I need flat tummy! (:

Goodnight.

USS

2010-07-15T13:38:00.000+08:00

At USS with some of my squadmates. The queue is just damn long that I decided to blog for a while. And this is like our 3rd ride.

Okay plus I'm hungry now. I need to wait until the ride ends plus snacks are expensive here!

Busy week.

2010-07-13T23:39:00.003+08:00

Monday: Went to Bugis with Ogy. It's like more than 7 months since last I saw her. We did some catch up, had our dinner, laughed and talked. I just miss her. I wish she can be my kakak ipar la kan, tp tkde jodoh dgn abg aku. Hahaha!

Tueday: Went to USS to buy the tickets with Dian. Walked ard at Vivo, and received a call from Mizi, saying tt he wanted to join. We had heavy late lunch at Pizza Hut before go back to USS to get it one for him. Total=7 persons gg. Odd number! Nvrmd, there are 4 girls anyways.

Then got this girl at the counter asked me, her name is Sherilyn if I can remember... while waiting for the ticket:

Sherilyn: You look familiar laa...
Me: Really? Must be popular.. Hahaha!
Sherilyn: Where do you stay?
Me: Jurong West...
Sherilyn: Me too!
Me: What blk?
Sherilyn: 700 +
Me: Ala, what's the plus?? Just tell laa..
Sherilyn: 716..
Me: No wonder you said very familiar cos I stay at 717. Neighborhood friend!
Sherilyn: Which sch are you from?
Me: SPF sch.
Sherilyn: Huh???
Me: Okay, ITE Clementi.
Sherilyn: Oh, okay.

& gave me the ticket. Kawan blk eh! Lol! Tired alrd, went home. Reached home at 7pm. Siang or what?! Dian's crazy! ALWAYS. & FAT! ;p

Wednesday: Meeting Fiizah, gg somewhere and hopefully meeting Lin after her work to help me with my blackberry phone. Still gundu la aku... so need guide le!

Thursday: USS! 9.30am at Sentosa/Vivo.

Friday: No plan.

Saturday: Plan to rent car and drive around with thy bitches.

Sunday: REST DAY BEFORE REPORT TO WORK ON MONDAY.

Okay, tonight's boring. Fad is not online. No one entertain me. Lonely me. FUCK YOU DAYAH! Hahaha! That's it, abg aku nye turn.. anyways what's the point when I alrd got blackberry phone to surf the net right?

Can breakfast with you tmrw? Skali he go and read this! Hahaha! No, I don't think so!

Goodnight.

New boyfriend.

2010-07-12T12:09:00.002+08:00

Did I mention tt I got new boyfriend? No eh?!

Hahaha! I can't help it laa cos I'm the one who proposed! Hahaha! & yeah, he's mine like for life?! I'll remember this date, 11TH JULY 2010.

Went out with thy bitches last Saturday. We rent a room and dvd at Cathay Cine and watch it together. Ya, privacy. We watched Tooth Fairy. & it's damn funny eh. I know, old movie but who cares anyway. We had fun, I know I should join them earlier but I can't say no to my mum for accompanying her to jemputan at Bedok.

I bumped into my long lost neighbourhood cum sec friend, SUE! hahaha, talk to her for awhile and left them behind. I miss her anyway. & ytd, sad thing but it happened. Fast recovery for your sis.

Went out with my mum and bro yesterday to Suntec City. Bought few stuffs for my bro, I just love him la and can't help with muke-kesian die. Hahaha! And a bit for myself. Had heavy lunch at Secret Recipe with them too before we continue to walk and walk. Haha!

Later tt night, I was online and was chatting with Fad and randomly, we met for late supper at Mac. Okay, first I don't really know him and second, I agree to lepak with him. Hahaha! Third, we still continue to online after supper. & chat till dawn I guess? Hahaha! Giler! But nice!

Okay now, I sooo like these 2 songs. I like the guy version but the girl version better. Amek kau!

Enjoy your Monday!

2010-07-09T20:52:00.003+08:00

I received this early morning and I'm glad there's someone out there who really cares about me.

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go" ~ Heman Hesse

It's from Lin Cruz. I thought from a guy skali die. Lol! Kidding! I'm touched. REALLY.

& few things why I'm happy nowadays.

We started at 9:14pm

& We ended at 12:19am.

Oh, she.. My pri school friend plus we stay in the same area, diff street but yet seldom to bump into each other. Lost contact, but thanks to FB (her sis acct)! Like finally, this girl I've been finding since ages. She's the only friend that I can stick during my pri sch life. We still remember abt this bird in the letterbox, makan kueh berdiri plus socks koyak!! LOL!

I miss him!

Thats all, I suppose to meet and lepak with Sue now, but hahahaa! okay!

TMRW DATING WITH THY BITCHES!!

Dayah is getting better.

2010-07-07T18:51:00.004+08:00

I'm happy. They always make me laugh and smile.

very random and I laughed alone reading it!

& ya, I've decided to get myself blackberry and not iPhone. Curve or bold, not sure. Under Singtel ah..not Starhub since I'm not yet legal cos I'm under student plan and only allow one number. Hmmp!

Okay, faceinhole also makes me happy with those funny pics.. I'll show some of my efforts uh..

Another random thing! This is what when boredom kills!

Kak pah conversation! my MSN buddy. haha!

Looking forward to Universal Studio with R22 this 15th and ya, planning to rent car soon. So many good things gonna happen.

SWEETNESS AFTER HURT.

sick. ):

2010-07-06T23:56:00.002+08:00

Urrhh, I'm sick again. Minor one but it's like my whole body is aching. & I ask my mum to help me if she can massage...

Me: Mak, tolong picit kan badan bole? Sengal2 laa...
Mum: Okay, sini...
Me: (walk to her and let her massage my back..) *Burpp* (action only)
Me: Mak, kuat2 baru rase..
Mum: Kuat la ni...
Me: Mak, buat badan org mcm mak bukak durian..(show her the way laa..)
Mum: Kau pikir badan kau durian?... Hahaha!
Me:..........
Mum: Kau bagi aku durian, biar aku letak belakang kau beh aku bukak kan...
Me: Mak! Hahahahahaha!

Cute la my mummy!!

Feeling much better

2010-07-06T00:05:00.002+08:00

I'm doing good, much better than yesterday. Life gotta move on even it hurts.

Doing nothing currently. Stay at home, spending time with my Mum as much as I can. Sleep as per normal, trying to rest more. But, I spend most of my time in front of this laptop until dawn and wake up late afternoon. Mane discipline Dayah?! Lol!

I got problem with sleeping and having a proper meal. Really and I'm guilty for not exercise! Hahaha!

Okay, I miss her alot. Since ages I hear your voice laaa... In the middle of the conversation:

Her: Oh so kau nk ckp aku nye hp tk bagus la.. Sindir aku indirectly la ni...
Me: No, serious aku nye hp tkde camera and tkde color, cume torchlight video pon tkde..
Her: Ah, Oh.. hahah! Aku nye ade color, bangse 10$ above your phone price. Hahaha!
Me: Hahaha! tp video bole pakai?!
Her: Bole only for few seconds.. Hahhaha!
Me: LOL.. No you want to video.. "Hello, my name is...." 3 secs?!
Her: No la, the video like u take photo?!!! HAHAHAHAH!
Me: WTH LMAO!

call ended 32:41.. we miss each other that bad!

NYDIAH SYAQILAH, I MISS YOU SO MUCH!! Meeting soon.

Okay, wanna play this faceinhole.com addictive and my msn buddy always thr to entertain me. Kak Pah, u rock my night laaa!!

goodnight!

Part III

2010-07-04T02:33:00.003+08:00

Put aside this sadness, it brings me to nowhere.

Best part of my life is friends.

Now, let pictures do the talking, when I'm free, I'm gg to upload pictures taken earlier this evening.

I love this pic the best, just because i think I snapped this. hahah!

Ya Allah!! If he's mine!!

RM9.. where to get in Spore?

Gdbye KL.

This is like 1/2 of the pictures only but I think enough la kan.. We had so much fun in KL that I think 4 days were not enough for me. I love it! Steamboat per person RM25. We tried everything for transportation. Waking up early morning for breakfast, watch tv, went to sauna, my lovely friends had wonderful time in jacuzzi while me, menses tt time, so I have to watch them. Went to KLCC to catch A-team before we head to KLIA. & ya, we almost.. miss the flight. Hahaha!

Reached Spore, my lovely country! & go home to hug my Mum!

Met Sarah ytd. Accompanied her to shop. She bought a few stuffs. While me, nothing caught my attention so yeah. We spent few hours together. & went home. Thanks Sarah.

Lin, I really appreciate with whatever u said to me. I need to be strong. Thanks for being there for me when I really needs someone.. Thanks for the advise.. I need to learn to let go things, heal it. find something to occupy my time, get busy with family and friends. INSYALLAH. Amin!

Goodnight.

My love for you has turned to hate.

2010-07-03T01:49:00.002+08:00

When I drop you boy
You'll need another toy
One that won't stand up for herself
When I knock you down
You'll need another town
Where somebody's gonna talk to you
You just let me wait now it's too late
For your delayed devotion.

You try to convince me
About the possibilities
But I know that all your poetry
Just comes from insecurity
Cos your actions mean nothing no more
When it's what I've been waiting for
Cos you've taken too much time
To show me that you're mine

You played me for a fool for too long
Blinded by your lies I never saw you're wrong
I'm no longer under your spell
Hear it in this song, you can go to hell.

Dear to you, after what you did to me today, I think and fucking sure that I deserve someone better than you. I don't know why I still think that I do love you eventhough I know you sucha fucked up person most of the time & I know you can break my heart anytime. Weird, why should I cry for a person like you that treat me like a toy.. & me, being like a fool..? It's clear to see and yet again, I never learn my lesson. *sighs*

I thought we are better off as friends, but this feelings I just can't hide that deep down I do care abt u, me, us. But I really thank God for what happened again today. ITS FUCKING CLEAR YOU ARE JUST SUCHA BASTARD. Asking her to come and being like a stupid lady who watched her bf playing game and left me alone like a fool. & you don't even care to call or sms me to show that you cares. It shows the real you, the fucking real you.

We are not going to fight or argue anymore. Not even going to pick up your calls and texting you again. I'm done with your game. & now, I need to learn how to let go things that are not mine. I know truth hurts but nothing can change it.

Afterall Dayah, he DON'T care about you, bitch. So stop hoping and move on with your life. All you need is time to get things over, slowly. It's about your happiness, Dayah. Once, think about yourself. You got a great career above and great friends and family who care about you and not that stupid BASTARD. Ain't worth your time for this kind of guy.

Let tomorrow be a better day for me. Get over it, chill pill with those who need me most. & ya, I'm happy with what I'm doing now. Again, I'm lying. Damn!

Okay, date with Yus tomorrow. This time I hate goodbye but for my goodness sake, for my happiness, for myself, I need to.

You lost us, we're broken.

2010-07-02T00:18:00.001+08:00

You're my past, in my future,
One that's about to begin.
I want you, can't have you,
Both ways, I can't win.

I loved you, still love you,
Long to have you by my side.
I'm miserable, so lonely,
A fact I do well to hide.

You were my love, my everything,
Still need you to hold.
I'm different, almost careless,
Inside, I feel so cold.

I miss you, really miss you,
But you damaged my heart.
Baby, I still want you,
Even though you tore me apart.
-Danika Jackson

Part II

2010-07-01T20:52:00.000+08:00

Was online and suddenly...

LOL! Bile nak 1st interview??! Org da pass out la.. Hahaha! ok, sorry if I sounds like bragging or being bossy..

Well, promised u all for part 2 of the pictures.

Syafiq, my classmates since Sec 1 and I was surprised when I saw him inside. & ya, my junior. Heheh!
Thats my bunk! Mine is nearest to the window and mirror on the left side.
Ehemmm! I just love to hang out with these 2 OB guys, they are fun guys! plus Serene!
Again, with Shahril&Muzz! They are from Syafiq's squad.

Nothing's new. Same old pic. hahah!

PHOTOBUCKET sucks, I've been in this web since like 1pm until now, trying to edit and resize the photos. But they gave me bullshit until me myself confused due to many pictures.. I even managed to take my shower.. FB-ing, chat with Intan and Yus.

Been staying at home for the past 2 days eversince I came back from KL. Doing nothing but trying to upload as many pics as I can. & I had my Mac Donalds last night with bro&mum. & Now i'm guilty for junk food and never exercising..

CONTINUE..

That's all, tmrw continue again. Dayah now da lapar arld. take care!

POC&KL trip photos.

2010-07-01T00:24:00.002+08:00

Opps, sorry that I neglect my blog for so long, been wanting to update but yet so lazy. Hahah!

& this time I'm back with pics and stories for the past few weeks.

I had wonderful last night in HTA, after our POC night having fun with the game, video montage and dinner catered! & we got scolding from captain planet for playing prank and shouting POC-OH so loud! But it's our last night, so who cares?! Surprisingly we left with no tears, most of us. Hahaha!

First, I'm proud of myself for the hardwork and effort I put it in my training and finally I pass out last Thurs, 24th June 2009 one day before my 7th anniversary with 2nd intake. My parents and bro came to their daughter collecting the cert... Thanks to them for their support and encouragement. Thanks and love u laa..

After my successful POC-OH & de-kit, I guess I need time off.. Went to KL with 2 of my friends by flight and the hotel, AWESOME! Never believe? See it yourselves! I'll upload the KL pics tmrw.

Arizan, my attachment's partner. I was in his team and working for the last day at BP NPC.
Swagger, used to be my crush but I ditched him cos he got gf. LOL!
Mizi, my tooottt buddy!
Fauziah, my squadmate who got into same div.

my best buddy guy version!

awesome girls!

departure to KL.

to be continue...

soon, goodbye.

2010-06-11T23:05:00.003+08:00

I remember on 23rd of November 2009, I decided to sign on the papers. & sacrifice to cut my hair short.

I will start to miss my class, my physical training, swimming lessons, drill, my ma'am's nagging, miss my OFI (Alvin the most), the laughter and tears that we share for almost 7 months. The arguments, misunderstandings, sarcasm and fights that made me what I am today. After the hardwork and effort we put in, it's pay off afterall.

I feel as if it was yesterday when I first entered HTA with the weird stares from NS boys and people around me. Wearing purple shirt with jeans and bagpack walking in with a girl who carried this big black bag and she introduced herself to me as we walked to Blk 12 Room 55 on 25th November 2009. I still remember how much I hate that place, keep swearing to myself why I'm there, making friends was such a burden for me and need to adopt with the environment inside. Get use with the mess food, wake up early morning to queue for shower, and wearing the shirts and track pants for class for 2 months.

& never looking forward to book in every Sunday and always wish how Friday can come early so I can book out and enjoy my weekend with friends. But now, I wanna stay long with my squadmates. Eventually, good thing has come to an end. I will miss the outings that they always plan over the weekend. & I never regret to spend my time with them everyday w/o fail. For sure, I'm gg to miss my squadmates, R22/09 alot after 24th!

This Sunday will be my 2nd last book in, I'm excited cos I've been waiting for 24th June for so long and can't wait to pass out cos I'm sick and tired with the world inside. & sad too cos we gonna go on separate ways and it's true maybe we won't be seeing each other anymore/often.

Clear the locker, almost empty except for toiletries, uniforms, a few hangers, and tissue box. I can't nomore. So excited!!!

Next schedule: Tmrw a date with mum & younger bro and later join them to Beach road for bone steak. Them, R22/09. Sunday: movie marathon with my 2 great friends.

20th June: exchanging gifts with the other 4 girls and it's pyjamas theme whereas for my 2 bitches, our theme is night gown with funny graphic and it falls on 21st.

Shit, why must it be so fast?!! Thank God, there's video montage. SWEET MEMORIES.

This Monday gonna be having my enhancement. One whole day, sitting in the car driving to the highway, Kent Ridge, Changi, ECP, multi purpose carpark. Okay, I totally forgot how to drive. Shittt!!

E-Learning not yet finish and I can't wait for my virgin holiday with friends to Langkawi right after de-kit. Hopefully no more course/class after pass out.

I guess I had enough saying. & there so many words for the broken heart. But I prefer to shut.

Goodnight babaysss!!

2010-06-05T14:14:00.002+08:00

Saturday sucks, gloomy day.

Arguments. Like kids.. Hahaha!

Or I will just hide under covers and sleep.

tired plus sleepy.

2010-05-30T15:17:00.003+08:00

It's been very busy for me for the last two days. & it's time to get back to discipline mode, it's training time, again! I think I should start to love Sunday from now onwards cos soon we gonna POC-OH!

Okay, last Friday was Vesak Day, and Sue plan for cycling at Ubin long time. We were suppose to meet at the entrance by 8 am, but we were all late! I met Yus at Admiralty at 8.10.. Still need to find breakfast lagik.. And yeah we reached thr at 9 plus I guess. Upon reaching, we survey the bicycle shops and had one each for a day. & I hate cycling!! very! Especially up the slope, damn!! I swear tt i rather run 2.4km.. Hahah! I keep complaining and whining and I pity my friends for waiting for me cos aku the last one to reach! Hahaha! We are like sweating, one whole body. I mean, me.

We are like enjoying few hours je and we went off cos we gave up in adventuring the Pulau Ubin! And went seperate ways.

Accompany Yus to get his shorts for his holiday. We went to Tampines Mall, found one at Uniqlo. Then went to Far East and Pacific Plaza. Found one at Flash&Splash. Heading to Suntec, Esplanade and watch this quickie danceshow or what. Dinner at Makansutra and went to Marina Square, jln2... Bumped into his squadmate and few other ppl. Hope they zip their mouth before they start the rumours! here the pics, some of them only.

Went to town ytd, met Syalha and Lin, sorry I was late. Lunch at Ramen ten and walk ard, lepak.. and went home. Movie at night with Taufiq at JP.

The rest next weekend ah..

p.s: pics not in order.

Like Batam.

trying to be Ronaldo.

=)

2010-05-27T11:56:00.004+08:00

Like finally, I can stay at home for long. Today on leave, don't know what kind of leave until next Sunday. Hahaha!

I guess this is the best week ever for the past 6 months cos, last Tuesday was the best day I think. First, we turned 6 months and that day I was having my TP. I was so fucking nervous even during my warm up. But thank God, I managed to pass. Actually I never expect that I can make it. Seriously cos I'm prepared to fail.. Some squads went and most of them fail due to mount kerb.. So aku nye confident pon drop and expect that aku fail. Okay2, aku da repeat 2 kali.. & when I'm about to start driving, this Tester like keep talking to me.. I can't really focus of what he was talking but the first thing tt came out from his mouth was

Him: Kau anak sape?
Me: Ahhh?! Anak Rosli...
Him: Bapak kau keje ape??
Me: ??! Aaahhh.. C.C
Him: C.C ape??
Me: .....(LOST IN MY OWN WORLD FOCUSING ON MY DRIVING!)
Him: C.C tu ape...?
Me: ....

Hahaha! After I finished my circuit, we went to the road and he start to say to me this

Him: Eh, kau jangan nervous laa... Jangan takot bole tak?
Me: Okay Sir!!
Him: Beh relax laa...
Me: (low voice) SHIT!!
Him: Aku bebual dgn kau nie sume pasal kau tak takot... paham?
Me: Yes Sir!

After driving, he asked me to go up to the class and wait for me, and I was the last one to reach the class and some of them alrd like ask me either I pass or fail, feel the pressure sia!! After tt, he talked to me on my mistakes and everything and the RESULT=PASSED!! 16 points! =)

Now I can drive alrd!! Hahaha!

Tmrw plan is outing with Sue & bf with her friend and Yus! Decided to cycle ard P. Ubin.. and it's at 8?! And then he want me to follow to get a cap for himself. And Saturday, karaoke session with angels!!

LONG WEEKEND!! :) for today, let's stay home and enjoy tv, MTV, dvd(s)!!

Urrrh!

2010-05-22T01:12:00.002+08:00

BUSY WEEK!

1. SBT 2, done.
2. driving practical, done included final evaluation.
3. iSBT, done.

RESULT, PASS except no. 2..

NEXT WEEK:

1. DAYAH become IC on Monday.
2. DEPLOYMENT/USHERING for squads who gg to POP on Monday.
3. ROLEPLAY for R24 on Monday. Half of them after lunch.
4. TUESDAY, TP! *keep fingers crossing*
5. gg to K-9 on Wednesday.
6. BOOK OUT ON WEDNESDAY.
7. cycling at P. Ubin okay!!

*in red=important.

NOW, I'm a dead battery. Need rest..
& tmrw my abg sedare nikah which I need to attend it early in the morning. MAMPOS!!

So, better aku tido sekarang. Selamat malam semua.

worn out! dead battery.

2010-05-09T10:53:00.002+08:00

Oh, I'm super tired yesterday tt I didn't go online for the whole day..

My driving started at 8.30 am till 12 pm yesterday. Okay, so far my driving improved alot, that's what my instructor told me and I learnt the S and crank course, parking, u-turn and 3 points turn. Yus had a plan for us, catching THE BACK-UP PLAN after my driving. But he asked to go home, freshen up myself, rest and all that. But right after my driving, Kak Pah and me went to PM mac, makan. Perangai kebulor, but the weird thing was, when I see the burger, I feel full. Hahahah! Anyways, I managed to makan and finish it off! Okay, so I got ready and everything went to JP to settle some of my stuffs and suddenly rain start to fall heavily that he stucked at home. Die nye pandai, he went to motorshop to get his bike repair then he forgot to bring the dvd I asked him to bring...tu la, lupe lagik then aku kene tgu kau for almost 1 hour kt ps like tongong! Aku ingat aku sorang je yang lambat, rupenye ade org lagik lambat dari aku. Hahaha!

But, I guess somehow worth the waiting. Bought the tickets, went to Coffee Club at Rendevous Hotel, he treat me Garlic Prawn Pasta while he got himself of all, Coffee Club Burger. HE'S TOTALLY A CRAP GUY!!! Went for the movie, it was awesome but I hate to get the 2 row seats. SUCKS! & ya, the movie ended, no plan but walked all the way to town, patah balek, ate MAC ICE CREAM!! & then last minute, we went to Mustafar Center to get his deodorant and mine too plus COKE?! LOL! Pathetic abis la die tuh!! & now, he brought back my specs which left in his box. Thanks eh Yus! & sorry I feel asleep, thats why...

Pheeww, like finally I managed to blog something abt my weekend. Hahaha!

Next Sat, plan with cousin Yus. Shopping pe?! Hehehe!

6 more book ins, tmrw and Tuesday will be my iSBT test day. WHOLE DAY. Okay, aku lapar!! Getting ready to celebrate mother's day at nenek's.

Mum, I love you. Thanks for everything, love, happiness, care and concern.. I really appreciate you and I love you so much. Muacckkss x 100!! PRESENT, next week.. No $$ la mak... May Allah bless you always okay, sayang makkkk!!

Okay, Happy Belated Birthday to LISA & KAK PAH. :)

Farewell pictures.

2010-05-02T18:31:00.002+08:00

Fir/Yus made me sleep tt late. I slept at 5 am.. Chatting with this guy just makes me go crazy! Tired! & Sleepy.. Anw, he's from R2. my junior, chett! Action ahhh!!

Okay, I combined the pictures together, save time and save space..

The pictures taken during Syalha's farewell, Alvin's ORD, Kak Pah's bday and our achievement in IPPT. & I'm happy to see Lin passed her IPPT! Like finally, I knew it you can just tt you lazy! Eh, no offence! Hehehe!

& ya, thanks F.I Desmond for the small little bear he gave, randomly!! It happened when I did OB with Serene and he came in. We talked about this soft toy which many of us find it very very cute until I told him I want.. He left and came with a big one. Not really big but bigger than the 1st I want. He asked to share or rotate with Serene but I took it, wth?! Hahah! Thanks anw!

Tonight, spending my night with neighbour upstairs. Heh!

Okay, I hate whenever he drop by and read my blog and later telling me what should I do and shouldn't I do. Look, first it's my blog. 2nd, got nothing to do with him. 3rd, why he always drop by? 4th, I'm over him but he always coming around. 5th, I know he's not over me. 6th, HE'S MANUPULATING ME. AND IF YOU HAPPEN TO DROP BY AND READ THIS PARAGRAPH, GO AHEAD BUT I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ANYTHING FROM YOU ANYMORE. EASY. So you won't be thinking what should you say this time, just keep it to yourself. You know who I'm talking about boy.

Got to go now, pack my stuffs and leave this lovely home, leaving my laptop and leaving my family for a week. ENDURE, 7 MORE BOOK INS and thats it!

i hate you for that.

2010-05-02T02:43:00.001+08:00

“Sometimes, no matter how much you miss someone,It’s still wiser not to have that person back again.”

sick. sick. sick. pls go away.

2010-04-30T19:11:00.002+08:00

Down with fever, come and go.. But hopefully it will go. I hate to fall sick..! Siapa yang suka kalau drg sakit?!

Okay, book out from CDC ytd night right after driving and randomly, he conducted a test in circuit, and I failed. Damn!! He said I always forget to check blindspots and I got 3 immediate failures cos he jam-brake for 3 times. Mizi la, block aku nya lane then almost hit his car! Urrghh, awas lho Mizi! Hahaha!

This part kinda sad, Syalha was terminated last Monday due to her service injury. But she didn't leave us with nothing but precious speech.. We booked the Cafeteria, ordered pizzas and cakes including chicken baskets. Anyways, it's our 1st time gg to Cafeteria, it's out of bound for trainees to go thr except for certain achievements and functions. For us, we celebrated our achievements on our final IPPT results, F.I Alvin's ORD, Kak Pah's bday and farewell for Syalha. Before cutting the cake, she did the speech to all of my squadmates. It was touching to hear each and every one characters/personalities. & the sweetest part was, my name was the last to annouce. & w/o noticing it, some of the girls alrd cried exclude the 3 little pigs and the fun part was Syalha hit the speech right to their faces. Somemore their names were mentioned first.. HAHAHA!! Nice one baby! & I can't even control the tears but to cry too... After 5 months being together in the same bunk, gossiping, laughing and sharing everything, u will be missed by us, Syalha. & all the best for your future, and somehow I'm happy for you maybe Allah got a better place/job for you out there. & you do not need to face the demons in my bunk anymore.

2nd, the 4 of other girls got to shift back to my bunk this Monday, but somehow we are trying not to.. I know how they feel if they gg to shift down. The World War III gg to begin and tts it, finish la bunk 26! & for me, I wish I can move up with Lin and Serene w/o bringing the 3 of them but impossible... Even the 3 of us can't stand them, and critical condition is the 3 of us always move up and sleep in their bunk since last Monday.. Being with the other 4 girls is great to compare with the nb(s) in my bunk.

My F.I Alvin gg to ORD, real soon. & we alrd changed our F.I.. This Monday he will be taking Alvin's place. The sad thing is will he be there when we gg to POC in 1 mth plus? Again sad news, we will never get the chance to take squad photo due to our last month attachment. We were away when they took squad photos! Damn!! Our squad so suweeiii!!!!! Why??

David asked me out today, but so sorry I'm not feeling good and I don't know why somehow I miss you but I hate you.. I don't want anything from you.. Nothing but please leave me alone.

Karma.

2010-04-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

I loved you so much
Cause all the time we were together
I really thought it was you and me

But after all of the times that we tried
I found out we were living a lie
It all seems so real when you said i love so
And after all of this love that we made
I know now you dont love me the same

I woke up something told me it wouldnt be the same
Everything you did and everything you said
Now Im standing here thinking damn
I thought it was you and I
now all I gotta say is why?

Karma.
They say Karma has a way of going round
everything you did to me well only hurt you in the end

You treated me as if I could easily be replaced
As if I was just a game
A toy
That you had rather left on a shelf when you were out to play

She now treats you the same
I should laugh in your face
Can you tell me
tell me how it feels to be hopeless in love
Because I felt the same
Once upon a time....

warning:photos uploaded

2010-04-18T13:24:00.002+08:00

Spent my Saturday with Serene, Jamadil, Jas and Shamin.

We went to Marina Square and again I was late. ALWAYS LATE. WHAT THE FUCK DAYAH?! Actually, I left home at 12.40pm, planning to take cab since we will be meeting at 1pm. Okay, I got the blue cab which I can use NETS after waiting for abt 2-5mins. Halfway, pakcik ni stopped and dropped me off somewhere Boon Lay area. He told me, his cashcard not enough money. Okay, I took out my cash to pay the fare but he insist it. Mati-mati tak nak amek.. Okay la, I dropped off and waited for another cab for 10 mins..but still no sign of blue cab. So I saw 242 and took to Boon Lay Int. Went to Jurong Point taxi stand and waited for abt 2o mins and finally I got the blue cab. I about to pay the fare when this uncle don't know how to use the the card machine thingy. Again, I'm stuck for abt 3-5 mins in the cab, waiting for uncle to do it when he actually don't know how to use it and end up I'M THE ONE WHO DID IT?! & I reached there at 1.45pm. And it's 1 hour and 5 min EQUALS TO I can take train from Pioneer to City hall = 30-45mins journey. PISSED OFF!

Anyways, we met and went for bowling, play arcade and I bought a bag from DCP. & we went to fish massage ke ape.. $10 for 10 mins. Very ticklish & somehow I don't really enjoy cos I keep on complaining, whining and geli. Hahahaha!

End my day quite well plus appointment with Keshia from UOB.

this is shorts, not skirt. due to my skinny jeans that I can't pull up, I've to change to shorts.

2nd part now.

It's the 2nd part of Thy Bitches's photos, just uploaded anyhow and I'm gg to upload my PO Camp too. Bear with me pls. I'm trying to make it short and simple.

WITH THY BITCHES PART 2.

Book in tonight. Journal? Never do... I miss my squadmates, especially Ah Lin and Fen Fen! :(

disappointed

2010-04-18T02:26:00.001+08:00

Why everytime I try to be early but end up always late. Disappointed in myself.

Critical condition.

:(

thy bitches.

2010-04-17T02:39:00.002+08:00

THEY ROCK MY WORLD.

I LOVE THEM, SERIOUS! THE BEST DRUG EVER!

They waited for me like half an hour, sorry I'm always the latequeen one, don't know why. Haiizzz!! But they still wait for, sweet right they all. *roll eyes* Hahaha! We decided to go to 313. Bought my white singlet for the layering at f21, plus Nydiah really brainwash me to get this checkered shirt & yes I bought it..

We walked all the way to Ion.. Nydiah bought herself a leggings from Uniqlo.. Search like hell, compare the price and quantity.. End up she buy... We then proceed to Lau Pasat for dinner. & hang out near to the merlion. Took photos and play games from iTouch. Haidar camera this time sucks. Hahaha but managed to snap few pics together. :) we had a great time together.

Here the photos exclude Haidar's.

see, we wear leggings, coincidence lor!

pak mentels

gdnight, it's alrd late night. tc.. muacks

I'm glad to be home.

2010-04-16T11:35:00.002+08:00

After tons of activities and physical training, thank God, I'm home.. Shagged and tired and worn out!

Now, I regret of being so excited about the camp thing and end up swearing and cursing due to time management.. Anw, it's over and I damn happy cos I'm home! It was pack with activities and we need to cook on our own. No kitchen but using the camp stove thing. Ok, my lunch and dinner were MAGGIES! I hate maggies, they NO-NO-NO GOOD!! But of course la kan, if alrd hungry everything I eat one! Luckily my mum asked me to bring chilli tuna along, if not... I CAN GO CRAZY WITH MAGGIE!!

But some of the activities were fun exclude night class on the 2nd day. Each of us were given a topic, this is by we choose it from the table and we can't see what are we choosing. It's my turn then, when I picked and turned, DAMMMMNNN! POWER FLAGS! & I DON'T KNOW THAT. I was thinking should I break it up either to define the meaning of prayer, talk abt prayer or talk about flags? & this stupid thing come across my mind, SHOES! I was talking cock abt SHOES FOR 5 MINUTES!! Some even get the most simple topics like SPA, RESORTS.. LOVELETTERS.. wah that one I also can talk for 10 minutes.. this one POWER FLAGS?! How I know...

OKAY, ENOUGH.. TIME IS RUNNING OUT, NEED TO GO OUT FOR A WHILE. be back at night, I'll try to upload pics..

book in again.

2010-04-11T14:59:00.002+08:00

Time pass so fast. It's time for another book in again.

I hate Sundays like how much I hate cats. :(

I keep on procrastinating to complete the packing thingy. Most of it alrd done. Left my aid kit, my tshirts and undergarments. Food, alrd inside tt big bag, haversack and walk in attire so mis-match. Hahaha! & I DIY my hair. trimmed, anyhow as long as short, I'm okay with it. Hahaha! Anyways, I can't wait for the camp thingy.. Sucks or what, we still gotta go..

Went for major shopping for my camp at Beach Road & Vivo together with my mum yeserday. We even had our lunch before we start to hunt for my stuffs. & later my mum did her shopping with her handbags. I was finding this long sleeve shirt but f21 tk ade. Called Dian to ask whr she get it her long sleeve.. and she told me at Zara, $20. I went to Zara, Vivo.. and met her inside with her mum and dad. Everyday your face la Dian!! Hahaha!

Now, I need to find some things first, let me clear everything first.

& I need to have a discipline savings.

I found this. RANDOM!
SAGITTARIUS
Spontanious. Horny. High sex appeal.
Rare to find. Good when found.
Loves being in long relationships.

Horny?! LMAO!

I passed this time.

2010-04-09T22:12:00.002+08:00

Like previous week, I book out from CDC.

Another good news; I PASSED MY FTT, DRILL TEST & IPPT. Thank God! Passed as a squad okay.. exclude the 3 little pigs. Hee! Clear everything, even being IC for 2 days. Tired of greeting F.I everywhere (but I don't mind greeting F.I Aizat & F.I Jason for countless time)..and because of that, I almost getting a sorethroat. This week was like so fast orh! I really love this week with our night FTT lessons. Kai's MR FINGERS! He fucking funny la.. Anw, it's our internal jokes, between the squad. Hahaha! & mission completed, the hardest mission ever in camp.. showering with Lin. Oppss! hahaha!

TGIF & I can't believe that I stay home tonight, so tired tt I went to get my afternn nap.. Its like months since I had a afternn nap. HEAVEN! Thanks to FTT, cos we book out earlier than usual.. 3 hours of nap was like 10 hours! Hahahaha! Okay, it's getting serious after this. Next week will be my P.O camp for 3 days 2 nights at Pulau Ubin. Again, thank God, I love u cos I won't get seperated from Lin. & with Dian, Jamadil, Sha'ari & Sohail. Plus with another 6 strangers from other squads. Ok la we can survive. Heh!! & we are the last team, Foxtrot! I need to get the stuffs die2 tmrw. Maybe just drop nearby.. so many things to pack, buy those food that tak masak betol then can get stomache ache.. and then need to survive with wildboars, cats and dogs around. Then now I can imagine how I live in forest... LOL! Then start to complain, got this la go that la.. then cannot sleep la... OKAY, I WENT SO FAR!

In my heart, I can't wait for the camp.

Okay ini budak asked to lepak. Who else if not Barak.. & alrd got plan for next Friday with Haidar, Hafiz and Dorothy. Hopefully jadi.

Now kan, I guess I wanna sleep again!

PICTURES LATER LA. LAZY TO UPLOAD AND STILL WAITING FOR LIN. PERIOD.

gdnight sweets.

tired, sleepy

2010-04-04T15:35:00.002+08:00

Woah, I'm back. Like yeassss-sa! I'm back!!!

Was fun but I know they don't like me sleeping so early. Chao-keng la tuh! I spoilt the midnight movie!

PICTURES UPLOAD NEXT WEEK, FRIDAY. With Lin laa....

Now, tired and sleepy gtg! :)

now and then.

2010-04-03T12:19:00.001+08:00

My Friday was so fucking boring, text my friends to meet, but they were busy with their commitment and stuffs. I was thinking should I go or stay at home till night before I leave to meet Sarah at IMM. But cancelled last min.

Yesterday was fun! Met Herman, Kai and Sufi with his fiancee at town. And eventually, we did nothing at town except had our light lunch at Dunkin Donuts while waiting for Azlin to come and join us. It was a random one, and I was like waiting someone to call me and ask me out. Hahaha! So yeah, we walked from Somerset to Ion and to Wheelock. They were like making fun of me especially Herman and Kai! Cos they said I look like a maid. WTH?! But still, steady boom pipitt la me... They were like, 'Bik, sini bik... & Eh, melayu...melayu sini..(they know I know..u all don't know)' Hahaha! We proceed to CT Hall to meet Azlin thr. As per normal if got Lin, confirm got camwhore. So we camwhore like sillies...but haven upload the pics, later. So sian, nothing to do and we went up all the way to arcade corner and we really play like hell, shouting and yelling. Hahahah! Had our KFC and headed home in 1 cab with 3 destinations, like usual aku last.. Hahahah! Eventhough a short one, but we really enjoy.

And later, meeting them for a short sweet escape in Singapore.

But wait, I gotta to finish my Investigation Papers and guess what?! My schedule next week.

Monday: DRILL TEST, evening till night: DRIVING LESSON (FTT)
Tuesday: DRILL TEST, evening till night: DRIVING LESSON(FTT)
Wednesday: I'm becoming IC & final IPPT, evening till night: DRIVING LESSON(FTT)
Thursday: I'm becoming IC, evening till night: DRIVING LESSON(FTT)
Friday: afternoon: DRVING TEST(FTT), book out from CDC(Eunos)

p.s: Driving lesson at CDC, Ubi there! Damn, but I like. :)

I so miss my long hair, and it's fucking diff with short hair. I mean I'm fat with long hair and I lose weight with short hair and with specs on. & I can only keep my long hair after June, which after my POC. It takes almost 2 years to keep it long, but I decided to keep it short.. How? Should I or should not?

Oh! and yes, I miss them alot! I missed a few outings with them. :( But nah, one day we will..
Of course I miss NYDIAH AND DOROTHY most! Hope to meet up soon..

And I alrd plan to get either one of these Blackberry right after I POC-O! Hahahah! Still got 2 more months to go and I'm getting ready for savings, soon. Lin like asking me to get Blackberry then we can bbm.. E series alrd like out of my list too. But depends if got new release or what..

Guess, enough of saying. It's time for me to makan, iron uniform pack bag before I leave so tmrw I can chill pill and sleep! :)

I passed!

2010-04-01T16:43:00.002+08:00

Finally, I'm home after a long journey from Eunos to Pioneer, sucks!

But worth my journey cos I passed my BTT. :) I know they said it's easy but still I'm happy! Okay we went to CDC for our BTT test after 2 weeks of revising the same question all over again. So we are the early to book out from HTA, and went to CDC. So I book out from CDC laa..Alone all the way was like a fuck feeling la kan.. Damn sleepy but can't sleep. Nvrmd, I'm happy again!

Saturday, sweet escape with my squadmates. Serene and Ahlin! Hahaha!

Gg to meet Sue and Sarah later. :) to where? Ikea.. :)

Update later, too happy to type la!

Not again tonight!

2010-03-28T18:05:00.002+08:00

It's impossible to never book in tonight! I should pay for the price now! Haha!

Okay, i've been compalining cos I got no time to relax for this week plus there are alot to come ahead and I swear I can't even wait for Thurs, cos we will be booking out on tt day early not from thr but from CDC.

Bought few VCDs, planned to watch it but I knew it tt I don't even bother to spend time with VCDs. Later.

Now, this time, I can't sfford to lose any mins cos I need to pack my bag and the junk foods I bought. One thing tt I can't wait, to see my squadmates and doing the water parade tonight, it's been a while since we had our water parade on Sunday night.

Guess that's all. I 'll be back next week as per normal. Enjoy!

Goodbye sweets!

Bastards!

2010-03-21T03:02:00.000+08:00

Guys, fucking bastard! Buih je tau!! Like what Lin told me, let's throw rocks and stones at them.. Lol! Not only guys but this one particular lady, a friend who eat another friend. :)

Okay, nevermind. I don't know why I'm still up at this time when I need to be at work by 7 am tmrw. I guess my squadmates are sleeping now especially Lin. Hahaha! Really miss her and Serene! In fact, sume! I just can't wait to book in this Monday morning cos there's so many stories and cases need to be shared among us. Hahahaha!

Changed the team, and thank God my partner was being nice to me, taught me this and tt. Like blurr cock but still he don't care, all the way patroling, I was like trying my best to learn more and stick like a glue.. Hahaha! Joke like da lame kawan gitu.. And this another guy, he also not bad. At least I learnt something, alot! they really helped and explained why this and tt. But later, I'll be changing to another team and let's pray tt this will be a good one. errm!!

I'm on off anw, so I went home and slept for few hrs. That guy suppose to meet me at 5, when i woke up at 4.15 and try to reach him but I guess he was sleeping so by 5, called and text him but receive nothing so aku kene bastard from this guy. Called Sue but she was with bf so tknak kpo2, called Sarah and yeaaay! We met up at Lavender ard 7pm, went for late dinner.. Talk abt the same old thing and like finally after months being at home, she found a good job for herself. Hahaha! But limited time for us to jumpe. & ya after dinner with Sarah and her bro, Sarah & me went to Mustafar Centre to get my hiking bag.. and Sarah really make fun of this luggage that looks like 'ice-box'.. Hahahah! Damn funny la.. & but end up I bought CKIN2U perfume too. :) My Esprit alrd finished... And bought few toiletries..

Errm, I'm yet to iron my uniform..tmrw must wake up so early but before I go to bed, I need to get something done!

Okay, maybe I can update later. :)

P.s: Happy Birthday Aidil! I love you laaa!!

TGIF

2010-03-19T15:18:00.002+08:00

TGIF?!

Hell no! Cos I'll be missing the fun with them tonight, they will be dancing and grinding w/o me? Fucckkk lorr! I wanna join but I'm working on night shift like wth?! Ppl enjoying on the Friday night and here I am working. Hahaha! It's okay, it will be the last one tt burn my Friday.. BUT they will miss the fun w/o me. Hahaha! Enjoy bitches! Snap pics and let me see orhh!! & I will keep my fingers crossing not to get jealous over their pics later! HAHAHA!

Attachment almost done, left with Sunday only, yet to get interesting cases. The thing we always do is lepak and sleep. But when the msges come in, it will be hectic one! Having the fun patroling, screening, road block and all that, gain more experience, see the real thing. U know.. But my friends cases were damn interesting, the way they told me la.. I hope tonight not gg to be boring cos I'm looking forward to attend better cases cos I got journal to write.. See, 7 incidents to write.. But all same, how ah?? & ya, it's kinda hard for us to find a specific time for our breakfast, lunch or dinner, due to busy, sleepy or tired... Thats why I choose Snickers to build the energy! Woahh! Sounds so the advertisement!

Okay, done with online shopping at ASOS.com, wanted to surprise my bro tt I bought a pair or shoes and a shirt for myself.& It's tru Solihin which is more cheaper & can have it within a week.. errrm, 4 days only.. So fast right?! & recently been spending money on things tt I don't really need them like hangbag and dresses. Like, aku spend cos aku ade duet?! hahaha! WTF Dayah?! Perangai tk perlu mcm tuh!

Okay see now!

for my bro!

Okay tt's all, I need to get my short and quick nap before get ready to work!

whataya want from me...

2010-03-17T21:22:00.004+08:00

Just dont give up

Im working it out

Please dont give in

I wont let you down

It messed me up

Need a second to breathe

Just keep coming around

Hey, Whataya want from me

Whataya want from me

Yeah, its plain to see

That baby youre beautiful

And theres nothing wrong with you

Its me

Im a freak

But thanks for loving me

Cause youre doing it perfectly

Yeah there might have been a time when

I would let you slip away

I wouldnt even try but

I think you could save my life...

Tired!

2010-03-16T16:24:00.000+08:00

Woaah, today will be my 2nd day of attachment and I'm alrd tired. and it will be 12 hrs shift.. Oh no, more than that, I need to report thr by 6.30pm, change to full uniform and all that, 8 pm start.. I can't even wait to follow the team for prowling. Hahaha, but the thing is in tt group I will be the only girl and the rest are guys and some really look ard my age and even ade budak NS.. haizz, the problem is, How am I gg to talk or interact with them... Hhahaha! Malu aku!

K, I'm just abt to tag Thy Bitches to club this Fri when I check my schedule, I will be working night shift again! like urrrh!!

So now, I need to get ready my stuff and pack them.. Meet Hidayaht for lunch before reporting in, and bring Kotex for Lisa. She another one! hahahaha!

And this Lin, she can't even stop her conversation with me. So fucking irritating with her very x 10 disgusting jokes. I know, I'm the only one u can turn too when come to this, I like.. Anw, I miss u and we can't meet until Monday morning. Hopefully Saturay can.. but will be damn damn damn tired.

I want the Vans new shoes leee but so the common alrd. Need to find other stuffs, but the most imp thing is get my hiking bag for the p.o camp.

That's all loves. I'm late! nak mandi!!!

A day with Yusri.

2010-03-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

Met Yusri ytd, hang out at Jp, had our late lunch at Ayam Penyet Ria.. and later we slacked at Starbucks, surfing the net and camwhore!

upclose, bad eyebags!

I close to finding truth & I know it hurts.

Now I see myself through different eyes, it's no surprise

Being alone will make you realise

When it's over, all love is fair..

2010-03-14T02:27:00.000+08:00

It was a random thing!

Book out and tt night, I went to DBL O with Eida, and coincidence, met Hadi thr. Accompanied him for smoke, talk and talk, joke and the same thing, jobscope.. and later we went in and yeah, So, we really dance like thr's no tmrw especially me.. hahaha! It was like super last min thing. Had fun but it was tiring for me. I was shagged and drunk, i admit i wasn't a good drinker. I get hyper after the shot, tequila and 2 jugs of raspberry.. & thanks Hadi for having the nice thoughts. :) So yeah, my Fri was well spent with Hadi and the rest.. the rest tuh sape?

I met my 2 bitches, we went to Johor! I guess the pics will do the talking, anw we really2 had our FUCKING BIG GOOD TIME talking abt SBT, damn Lin and Serene! fuckers la two of u! damn FUNNY!! It's our internal joke. hahahah!

the pics are not in order...

I'm scared of the skeleton, SBT Clone!

we looked fucking tired and shagged!

wah so the happy orrh!

exchanged gift, from Serene, thanks ahhh! i like it!

next, from Azlin.. Thanks also.. i like!

spot something?

full alrd laaa!!

the "lalu" cannot be seen, change the bulb laaa...

she get kinky!

Lastly,
u know why men love bitches? get the book then..

pictures uploaded!

2010-03-07T13:42:00.002+08:00

Some photos taken during the Saturdays/Fridays!

Sarah & me

Nydiah muke kau mcm aku nak tumbok nie!! hahaha!

bowling with thy bitches!

my irritating bitch!! hahaha!

ade ciri2 ke-lesbian-an kite??

muke kite ade senyiummmmm!!

caught red handed!!! shit!

almost full squad!

My irritating bitch but guy version! hahahha!

That's it, too many pics to upload.. Bole bocor ni blog! hahaha! Orite, this Hadi randomly nak PSP the latest one.. hahaha! Crazy, but last we decided I mean, me... I want WII!!! hahaha, and luckily he's okay with it... so ya, getting one soon!

Lastly, happy birthday Serene! We gonna whack u! Yeaaayyy!!

Book in tonight, and I'm yet to get food for my camp! shucckss! and I havent bathe tts why it's cloudy here. Hahaha!!
NOW IM HUNGRY AND WHEN IM HUNGRY IM ANGRY!! hahaha!

Like finally...

2010-03-07T01:08:00.002+08:00

Oh, like finally... I'm back!

Yeayy!! It's been a long time since the time I update this blog.. & left it untouched for few months.

Well nothing much, errrm actually more things happening nowadays.. But my time is limited now, so ya... A quickie one!! hahaha!

My 3 mths in camp was well spent, hard work paid off, more workouts and execises.. Building up stamina, muscles and lose few kgs. GREAT squadmates minus the 3 little pigs. Haahaha!!

I wanted to update pictures but too lazy due to the timing now.. It's getting late!

Alright, I went to Lavender at noon to meet Kai, Serene and Azlin. Kai wanted to collect his passport while Serene wanted to get the camp bag. So Azlin and me are the xtra one.. hahaha! We headed down to Beach Rd for lunch as Kai's number still got a long way to go.. He had sup tulang while the rest the same old thing.. where we can have it in mess.. hahaha! Gossip and bitching as per normal la kan...

Later we proceed to Sim Lim to do recovery for my lappy... It took 3 hrs to get it done, and to kill time we later went to City hall, lepak at the Starbucks mcm anak org kaya, play with Kai's webcam and taking stupid pics.. Damn funny laaa!! Hahahaha!!

Ok, this part I'm lazy to update.. hahaha! Tired and sleepy.. Kai went to hospital while Lin and me went back to Sim Lim and collect my lappy.. bump into few friends and we saw who Lin??!! MIZI?? hahaha with another girl?
hahaha!!

And we proceed to town, bought a dress and shirt for myself and the last one we go makan at whr baby?? PASTAMANIA..? damn nice orrhh!!

k2, now I'm fucking tired. tmrw need to iron uniform and pack my bag for book in and then right, I MISS HADI looorr!

Good night!! Lin, accompany me lee for next IT Fairr... heheheh!

2009-12-29T19:15:00.001+08:00

I will be back, soon. Stay tuned.

2009-11-28T23:08:00.002+08:00

okay, I feel sucky.. Why?

I cut my hair laa... For the sake of 'ns' at hta for 6 mths.. Trainee officer...

Well, life is so much better.. Fucking better that I don't need to worry abt anything. No bf, no stressing!! 2 pay come in 1 mth, woooo!! Best orh! One good thing is I can wash my eyes at camp. Soo the best gitu... Lol!! But I'm on training la..and I'm the youngest person in the squad! :)

Kk, my lappy is sick and I'm gonna send it like few weeks time.

And my birthday is coming, 10 DECEMBER..and Im gg to 'enjoy' it in camp. :(

Thats it, I'm tired. But I miss my NYDIAH SYAQILAH, SO MUCH!! kite jumpe soon!! Plss!!

Here's my pic, friends are making fun of me.. I know I look like a boy/amah/hensem/butch tuh sumeeee.. THANKSSS!!

okay tu muke burok amah aku!

nomore blogging for now. :)

2009-11-05T10:42:00.002+08:00

Hey, so hyper today. Wake up so early when mum asked my help to hang the clothes. And I did, fold the clothes, and even sweep the house. & here Iam blogging.

Meeting my friends later, we gonna check in early. But before tt, I need to find myself a simple outfit for tonight, I know it's not a big event but we always do like this when comes to club. Lol, but it's very very wrong to do it at the last min. & I'm yet to do anything, or plan anything. What I managed to do was survey online which club is better and cheaper on Thurs night. Somehow, I never looking forward for tonight. Errm, I don't know what is bothering me.. Oh shit!

And I'm having off today till Sunday due to some reasons why I'm taking so many days off but unfortunately, things happened before I manage to do something tt consider sweet, nvrmd. The luck wasn't on me.

:(

2009-11-04T23:24:00.002+08:00

Pay come in! Yeay!

Was so tired, and having headache during work time. I was late when I reached work, kinda happy to receive my cheque. Now it's the time for me to relax for moment. Had BK for lunch with Sue. Rain come and go while working, while q-ing to cash out pay..

Like finally I alrd ordered itouch online with free engraving with DAYAH DIBEE backto-mine :) Woohooo!! Like ages since I wanted tt, ordered some sexy dress online too, asos.com with the help of Solihin. And he ordered like 11 items for himself! Lol, crazy! I was killing time while waiting to go back and talking to Puspa when 2 customers left, so I decided to clear the table when I found out tt they forgot their pack of ciggarettes, so lucky me. I'm not a fan of smoker so I took and gave few to my friends the rest all mine! Lol!

After work, went to Mustafa Center with In, I bought Casio gold watch with diff pattern and more cheaper. Think hard should I or shouldn't..but like, I wanted tt type, so just grabbed, after few rounds of finding hp for In's mum thr, he gave up and walked down the road to find the black one. So after the 2nd shop, he decided to buy.. :)

Went home so happily but still the pain in my head didn't go. Hmm... It's killing me.

Okay tmrw guys, don't forget a date with me. Club, Zirca, Butter Factory or St James? Too bad Rebel close every thurs.. Hmmm!!

It's over, there's nothing to talk or sorry for. Goodnight.

2009-10-31T19:16:00.002+08:00

Since few days I had proper meal and finally I cooked curry fish for family yesterday. Sedapppp okay!!

Yesterday was fun working with Im, Puspa and Aisha, and thats the only staffs + manager working on night shift include Id, but Id wasn't in kaki gerek cos he totally gedebab boom hiaakdush pakkk pakkk pakkk phuiii nye kind of person. Masok kiri kluar kanan, so bo layan la kan! He's out from kaki gerek...!

We were kinda busy after Puspa left for her break. So the kanchong but still under control, hehe! Were playing ard at bar when Im suddenly said not to play ard when busy. Walauwei, busy salah tk busy pon slh, why?? But still we play ard but not at the bar, we do it on floor and inside office. Aisha totally a real joker, she act like retarded girl working on floor, so fucking funny tt she act infront of customers. Talking abt customers, I wanna tell a story. Yesterday there's a group of 6 ladies dine in and we are having this UOB promotions, like spend 15$ and get voucher on complimentary dessert with every purchase of hot/cold beverage. And they just gave Aisha, me and Puspa a hard time, why? Cos they want 3 vouchers. So if they want 3 vouchers they got to spend like 45$, instead of spending 45$ they made an order tt cost 30+ equals to 2 vouchers, but die2 want to have 3.. Aisha was so fucking confused tt she walked in and out from the office trying to calcute for them and explaining to them. After 15mins, we went back trying to explain, still again, degil nak mampos but manage to settle. ;) Then one of this ladies said, "Can I have 6 glasses of ice water, we so thirsty discussing abt the vouchers." See, pasal voucher, kiasu drg semcm, mcm cacat gitu.. And it happened to me too till i bring along a big calculator to show and count for them.

But was fun la, Puspa with her 'setan & sial'... Aisha with her 'cacat moves' drive me crazy. Id, his natural malas makes me pissed off.. & I was the last one to reach home. 3 am! Yang best tuh, still can online cos I'm off today and tmrw. :)

But doing nothing just housework and infront of comp since 1pm..& guess what? I haven't taken my shower yet. LOL. Pengotor sia Dayah!!!

Okay, itouch coming soon like 3 days. cannot wait alrd.. Want to browse ard..

I had a nice chat yesterday night with David, telling him how I feel right now, and w/o realise, there's tear welling up in my eyes..and he's finally thr for me..talking and advising me. I miss him much it's like almost a week since we met due to tight schedule I have for this week, prolly next week we'll see. I just need like a full day with u..For dinner or movie. Anw, I wanna catch This is it....but don't know when siaaa....

Okay this is it now, gdbye! Nak makan la..nak mandi jgk.

2009-10-30T00:52:00.002+08:00

Today, me feeling soo sleepy that I went overboard till Joo Koon instead to Pioneer, no problem cos 1 stop away. So panic but pretend nothing happen, what to do so tired, everynight infront of lappy. Doing nothing but bloghopping. Lol, luckily tmrw I'm on night shift. Tired!! Anw, went to Bugis with Puspa right after work, again we complain and talk rubbish..talk abt how can start a fire at cc, HV. Buat malu je!!

ITOUCH IN 5 DAYS TIME! Dress/top for club later yet so far..

Life is just envy abt me wanting to have some relaxing time, alone.

Things wasn't get any better the way I wanted. In fact, worst!

First, my mum fell down outside her workplace when she's walking back home. And I was not thr to help her and of course I feel sorry for her. But she complain too much, this and tt. Went for her xray and again I wasn't thr to accompany her and suddenly I feel like, "aku ni anak ape??" never think abt her mum. SHIT! This shouldn't be happening. And later I heard, my mum need big money for next mth, like.... So all this while, I'm the only daughter who support u? How abt abg?? Seriously it's not far, like I'm the only one who carrying this burden..whereas the other brothers?? So I keep myself shut so I won't be hurting my parents feelings eventhough I know it hurts me too.

Nowadays, I'm not on the bright side, many things tt affect me. WORK, FAMILY, LIFE, RSHIP. So fucking stress but yet, I keep quiet..

David wasn't thr when I need him so bad, I can't be bother to call or sms cos it never works. I know there's no point for me to stay, but I stay for the sake of LOVE. He's not the type of person who cares. Anw, he's not gg to be my future, so no worries. If he will, we gg to compromise everything and fix the spoilt part. Walauwei!! Why I'm talking abt this when I'm only 19 gg to 20? But I never deny, he's the only one my lovely boyf even he sucks at time. Lol!!

And yaaaa!! Planning to hit club next friday, Rebel or Butter Factory?? Errm, both?? Planning with C.C staffs.\ plus my bf. David, we will go!!!

CHARGE MY ENERGY, TMRW WITH KAKI GEREK, PUSPA, AISHAH, IM AND ME? YEAYYY!!

Gdnight!

2009-10-28T00:46:00.002+08:00

Promise you guys for a proper update right?

Well, let's start from errmmm...

Went out to meet Ciasha again, hang out at Pioneer Mall, right after work and she brought along Erli, her bestfriend back in primary school. That was my first time talking to stranger like kwn baek gitu. We had a fun time, gossiping abt Erli's crush/bf laughing trying to picture how does he looks like, playing with his name. So funny to think back!! Especially with this malay plum guy sitting just a few tables from us at Mac, he keep looking at me and smiling! Damn..ape aku buat sampai he keep turning and smile??! Ape case??

Again, work is as tiring like hell, running here and thr. Campak sane sini.. I took it cos I need to earn money. Of cos la kan.. Ok, I was pretty late just now, supposed to come at 10 but woke up at 9.20.. Panic strike! But yet I still had my breakfast fixed! And halfway when Lien called asking if I can help to cover shift at TB, I said yes when actually I found out tt I forgot to bring money! Ape ke heh?!! But still I made it to TB with coinssssss! Pffftt!

I miss Sue alot, eversince she has a bf, she almost forget abt me, maybe this is one of the reason I wanted to leave this job so much, so I won't be facing this sucky feeling anymore. Come and go with bf sending and fetching until tt she didn't realise tt our fship is drifting. Spending more time on bf and taking work lightly.. Almost like every week I got this shitty feeling but I try my best not to let my feeling come over. 3 is a crowd, i know. It sucks to feel this way. Anw, she's on honeymoon period, let it be, may she happy with what she chose and I will be happy for her. I guess next time find a bf who doesnt own any transport so tt we can spend time more besides than working together. Thats why I need u to take day off for all of us, include bfs. But she will always be my close friend. I just hope things get better..

I'm being fake with a smile thr, deep down I miss her! Cheeettt! Da mcm lesbian pulak!

Went to meet David yesterday, kinda miss him alot after a week of procrastinating myself not to see him even I miss him so much! Sheessh! So decided to see him and went out for our late dinner, we were agruing abt whr to eat and what to eat. As it's getting late, most of the restaurants alrd closed. He made up his mind and pulled my hand to Scape Park, Kopitiam. Had fried rice, very spicy. I chose cos he chose tt. Lol, lame eh Dayah?

I love this picture, but sadly David don't. ): Is this the hint of he's getting boring?

Errm, I still love him though! (the moments at Clarke Quay)

I need to see my THY BITCHES!! I miss them real badly how I wish I can hug them! Kwang3!! Sun-kissed la!! And I'm counting to my pay day cos I need itouch more than I need David, now. Lol, just kidding!

And tmrw, kaki gerek keje same shift, gdnight. 8 hours again! WORKAHOLIC la!

2009-10-27T00:54:00.002+08:00

Had late night dinner with David at Scape Park.

SHIT HAPPENS.

2009-10-26T01:56:00.001+08:00

I miss David, real bad. I need to see him and need the warm hug. ):

Proper update later. Stay tune..for more update and pictures. Tmrw 10am. BEST!!

Till now, gdnight.

2009-10-23T11:25:00.002+08:00

So, how do I start?

Well, many things happened within few days. Happy and sucky too.

Okay, first thing first. I went online on fb, playing games doing quiz and suddenly I saw Anup online, the guy I met in club once, was quite shocked cos tt was the last time we got tru before he moved to New York. We chat for quite some time..sch, life, work, bf and Singapore. Lol! He was hoping to drop by in few years which is still far..

Yesterday was suppose to be my off day, but I don't know why I wanted to work for 5 hrs before meeting Ciasha at Bugis. It was a drag, yawning tru' out the working hours, doing nothing but play, play, play. Joke and joke with Im and Sue, Zal and Aishah. Was playing with rag and trying to make prata terbang but did u ever see prata in green? No? Ok, available at my restaurant. Lol! Im wasn't doing good anyway and less customers walk in. 11 till 3, abt 3-5 customers. I know pathethic! What to do.. ): So this week, no off. Thanks la eh! Some got 2-3 days off again me nothing. Shit! U see, sometimes, we have to give and take. But if we always give in, the next round if we need someone to replace us, will them??

Went to Bugis straight with Sue. Halfway was yawning and sleeping.. I don't know why I feel so sleepy tt day. Went to buy tickets before meet Ciasha, she was late. Went to Bugis Junction and bought some food. & straight to Iluma, trying to kill time with watching ppl playing arcade and laugh stupidly at how they play it. Lol! Anw, My Sister's Keeper wasn't tt bad afterall. Touching siaaaa...... Head down to Tong Seng for dinner and later window shopping at Bugis Junction. I wanted the printed tee from Cotton On but not enough cash on hand so next time. Sume next time. ITOUCH next month once dapat gaji. ONLINE FREE ENGRAVING WITH DAYAH DIBEE AT THE BACK OF ITOUCH! Kwang3!!

Went home and chat with few of my friends and most of conversation, I attracted with Hazreel one. Talking abt SPF, and he told me tt I alrd got the job but I wasn't sure cos the letter wrote to re confirm 3 days before the bond signing which is on 20th nov. Are u ready Dayah?? Ready for the pay but not the training. LOL! And he keep convince me tt I got it.. Nothing to worry abt, bla bla bla. But another hand I heard tt my friend, Faizal Bar told me tt he never get it even after medical checkup.. I'm not sure how abt me cos I got this left eye problem. Double letter. But hopefully dapat.. Amin!

Okay, 5 till 2am today. gdluck! (:

U put me tru pain, I love u still.

2009-10-21T22:58:00.002+08:00

JOKE OF THE DAY: Aishah pakai mak die nye handsocks as her socks!! OMG! Am still laughing my ass out here! She's just funny! Fucking funny la kau!
See this!

LOL!!

Okay got up early morning for my SPF medical checkup at Raffles, I wasn't late and I was like the 3rd or 4th to arrive. Upon arrival, I submitted the form and I was asked to pee in a small bottle. She wanted half but I gave her 1/4. Haha! Rest my eyes as I was waiting my name to be called, in heart was like looking forward to meet my random friends who I met for my 2nd interview. As I opened my eyes, I saw both of them! And they wave hi too.. So we talked a few and ppl come in and out, soon tt place was crowded. My friends' names alrd been called but me..waiting mode.. End up I was the last among them to leave, aku yg dtg dulu drg yg dapat bla dulu. And this nurse really wanna see me cry, how can she put the needle and let it be in my vein for few mins, due to my bloodless and die like moving the needle ard in it. Awwww!

Waiting for doctor lak, again she injected again this time diff place and it hurts especially the nurse nye, feel like crying and see it swollen. I feel weak to carry the tray.. Working with new manager, Im is really fun, plus he/she is so fucking funny too! Im even waited for me to end work today cos die tk tau jalan balek naek MRT eversince motor kene curik. Pity tau..

Anw, thanks for betraying me and using me again and again, I still love u though cos love is blind. I surrender and u win with ur love game.

Leave it behind, now I'm counting my pay so I can buiy itouch, shop, party with gfs and shop before i leave for the training. Chey mcm dpt je Dayah, hopefully!

Now, Aishah is the joker of the day! Gdnight, tmrw date with gfs, Sue&Ciasha.

2009-10-21T00:47:00.002+08:00

WHAT??? Timberland premium boots for ann? Are u okay David?

Let me count the balance after cutting everything okay...LOL! Itouch or boots?? Boots or itouch?? Both no need la, fair! Eh!! Cannot, itouch must must buy!

Okay get some sleep, tmrw is a long day why? 8.30am medical checkup at Raffles. I received letter from SPF for the medical checkup. (: finally uh!

U make my day.

2009-10-17T13:56:00.002+08:00

Super sleepy and I can't get back to sleep now.

My parents alrd went to Batam early this morning and today it's Deepavali, so I can't take off. If I do, I will follow them. Anw they be back by tmrw.

Warning: This post type by me in detail.
So yesterday night I went to Ochard with David. Bought a F21 top there, and walking ard town, I wanted the jacket so much but we didn't anw. Wanted to have Mac and at the same I tried to catch the last train but David insist and he helped by looking at every bustop in town for NR. I tried to call few of my friends too. From Far East bustop to Shaw House walked all the way to Orchard MRT bustop to NAC bustop to The Heeren bustop and last we gave up! By the time nomore train. Left NR... So we went to Mac, Lucky Plaza. talk, talk, laugh, eat, laugh eat.. Suddenly he said "It would be nice if we eat this at the bridge, Clake Quay or club.." and we suggest to go Clarke Quay.

Finally we found the NR bus for myself. Waited for the bus, talk laugh again. Then we missed the bustop! Lol! With tongong face, David trying to hide when he know where to get down..

Me: David, we missed the bustop, that(pointing to the bustop) is the opp of Clake Quay..
David: (with confidence) Relax Dayah, don't I know city area, and buses here, they will turn..

So the bus went straight... I was laughing at him.. Later the driver asked 'Clarke Quay?' David walked up to the driver and bla bla bla, the bus nvr make a turn, so we stop and walked a long way. All thanks to David.

Found a spot and we talked abt how we both messed the rship, not feeling happy with each other, why i should go with this and that.. and him too. So at the end of the day, we both know our real true colors feeling better. Bumped into his former housemate with a friend, Chucks. They talk and talk and keep talking for quite some time.. Wave gdbye from far and he walked with his friend. We continue our conversation and he talked abt how this guy cheat Chucks gf.. bla bla bla.. Both feeling a little tired so we walked off to the bustop. Very2 long and I alrd yawning. It's 2.30am.. Finally board the bus w/o saying gdbye to David..

Next stop, Chucks friend board the bus and sat next to me and pretend I don't know him. Suddenly he asked me am I a Singaporean? so he started to talk to me, but i was sooo lazy to talk back. Keep asking me this and that, da la aku ngantok beh bole bebual dgn aku. Skali dapat tau he's one of the maen bola nye org.. I dont even knoww.. Hmmm..

Reached home quite late and David and I went online. we chat.. webcam everything. Oh so nice to feel this way but...

Gdbye, nak tgk Shah Rukh Khan MTV special!!

:)

TGIF

2009-10-16T14:38:00.002+08:00

TGIF!! & TGIO! (Thank God I'm Off!) (:

I wanted to update so much but I'm too busy to update and I don't know what to type.

Okay, I've been working alot for the next month pay to get myself itouch. I need it badly for music, since my Lembab Giler (LG) is making me insane with the batt running out within a day. Plus 1gb for music and pictures.. Biar betul nieee!!! So yeah I need tt with the help of Solihin. He's gg to purchase it online for me since aku tkde credit card. Hmmm...

I went out with David, it feels so awkward to meet after the breakup..but God! my feeling didn't change. He still look the same anw. Now I'm twisted even though the picture is clear now. I know tt I love him, so much. I can't go any further than this, so weak! What to do, love is blind!

Met Ciasha at town, she did some shopping and had our dinner at Far East, Nana Thai.Since a long time we didn't meet, wanted Sue to come along so much but she was in night shift. Sue, if kau bace ni, make sure Thurs ni confirm okay. Maybe we can catch a movie or what, oh no! Sue, you plan. Hee! Okay so after our dinner, we head down to Max&More. This dress caught my attention & wanted it so badly. Try out but to my disappointed, so ketat! What do you expect, free size. So places like Max&More, Hula&co, Bugis Village are out of my list to get dress. Mostly are free size. Walked ard and we saw this exactly jacket tt Ciasha wearing, so cheap but she bought it at higher price again what do u expect imatation nye. BUT the fabric almost the same just tt the bedek don't have the tag of the brand.

Head down to Ion Orchard, I wanted so much to see the Topshop clothes but instead of gg thr we went into Uniqlo. Again, Ciasha walked out with a bag. She bought something for her boyf. So, tayar da pancet, we went home with train.

Supposingly I work tonight and Sunday off, but we short of staff this Sunday so I replace it today to Sunday so today I'm off. It's heaven to off on Friday cos I never taste the feeling for the past 6 months, tu pon 1 time je.

My plan, get myself a jacket/denim jacket today since Taka also having sales. 70% off, i heard!

Enjoy ur weekends!

one picture is enough. :)

2009-10-12T01:53:00.002+08:00

The next thing I heard, I lost my friend, Saiful. Forever. :(

And the sad thing again, I know this when he gone for 20 days ago. Infact, he's my xboyf when I'm still young back in sec sch. One thing I regret is I nvr reply his last sms cos of my job! I was so busy and I learn tt friends are more important than anything else.

I'm sorry for not being thr when he need me. And sorry for his gf too. Now he's gone. May Allah always hear my prayers for him. Semoga roh nya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan org2 yg beriman. Amin..

2009-10-11T18:53:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was my Brother's birthday. Wow! he hit 21! Anyway Happy Birthday to you. May Allah bless u always.. :)

I wanted to stay as much as I want but I can't. I made many mistakes too and I can't keep on gg like this, in circle. U blame me, i blame u. I still love u but i have to give him chance too.. There's so many things I can't forget abt us, while it just started with him. I didn't know I can go this far, thats why I fucked up big time. I wanted a perfect love but maybe I nvr get what I want so I left. I know I'm being so irrational. Maybe we are not meant to be together.. We are meant to be friends, i guess. & I do love him too, but he's not what u have..I chose this path, tts why. The thing is I need to realise tt it's over.

I had a hard time sleeping, and ended in bed at 4 plus in the morning and woke up at 10.. Affected my mood and everything it goes like, everyday-no-mood nye face! So sleepy and yet still got to go to work..killing time thr with nothing much to do and busy during night time only and then leave the place at 2.30 am.. fuck! It's getting too much. Lagik baek time old manager aje rather than new ones! And worst have to send the far first, and like I'm having touring, 1 hr ride.. Shit! Everynight, late!

I really pray i get the new job soon so I can start and quit this JOB. It's like 5 months alrd working thr..skjp je! So it's time to get new fresh job..

Okay anyway I woke up to The Lost Voyage, History channel. It's regarding the Sept 11, World Trade Center. Feel sorry for them. It was 2 hrs show, where some people video-ing of what happened on tt day when the jet hit the building..

later after few mins

The end.

Okay2, I gtg now, Ciasha is waiting for me.
Pffftt!!

2009-10-09T13:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUSRI!
=)

Last wed was my manager, Elle last day working with us. She left bcos of the gd offer she had. So we did our things according to our plan. It was abit hectic but we managed to do in order. I wish her well all the best in everything she do. She's the first and only one manager tt I'm close with, working together. She's like a good friend to us, when she left tt place, we just wondering whats gonna happen to us. Whatever it is life moves on. :)

Okay, my final interview with SPF has ended. Was nervous most of my time while waiting for my turn. It was like 1 hr plus, and just sit at the canteen with some guys who also waiting for their turn. I'm in waiting mode for the medical checkup now. Hopefully I will get this job. :)

Davidson, wake up and face reality. You are just another typical guy.

2009-10-08T14:03:00.002+08:00

(So of course, you were supposed to call me tonight.)
You were supposed to call me tonight,
We'd have gone to the cinema,
And afterwards the restaurant,
The one you like in your street,

We'd have slept together,
Had a nice breakfast together,
And a walk in the park together,
How beautiful it'd been,

You would have said "I love you,"
In the cutest place on earth,
Where some lullabies are dancing with the fairies,

I would have waited like a week or two,
But you never tried to reach me, no,
You never called me back,
You were dating that bleached blonde girl,
And if I find her, I swear, I swear,

I'll kill her, I'll kill her,S
he stole my future, she broke my dream,
I'll kill her, I'll kill her,
She stole my future when she took you away,

I would have met your friends,
We would have had a drink or two,
They would have liked me cause
Sometimes i'm funny,

I would have met your dad,
I would have met your mum,
she'd have said,"Please, can't you make some beautiful babies,"
So we would have had a boy called Tom,
and a girl called Susan,Born in Japan,
I thought it was a love story,

But you don't want to get involved
I thought it was a love story,
But you're not ready for that,
Me neither.

I'll kill her,
She stole my future, she broke my dream,
I'll kill her, I'll kill her,
She stole my future when she took you away,

She's a bitch you know, all she's got is blondeness,
Not even tenderness, yeah she's clever-less,
She'll dump your ass for a model called Brendan,
He will pay for a beautiful surgery, because he's full of money,

I would have waited like a week or two,
But you never tried to reach me, no, no,
You never called me back,

I KNOW I FUCKED UP BIG TIME.

2009-10-06T01:22:00.002+08:00

I wanted to update so much..but tak tau nk update ape. So what I did was I met Kay. Okay, anw his name is not Kay but his first capital starts with K so spell it as Kay cause he wanted nobody to know abt us. Some of my friends, yes they know. Most, no-no! & tt is not a big deal as long as I'm happy with him. I know it's gonna be a long journey and we didn't plan anything cos we believe in we live in present.. so go with the flow.

To compare with previous, this is much caring person and he really give a fuck abt me and honestly I like tt, feel like someone really cares right? & the best thing, I feel so much happier, content and secure.

At times, I'm asking if he worth for me or I'm just gg along with him..to be compared with previous x, of course he so much better.. in everything. But I appreciate with God's gift.

Now, aku da terlajak!

So I went to met Kay over fastfood, Mac at Shaw House. Went for window shopping for new shoes. Ladies pump shoes!

WHY?? Cos I received last minute sms from SPF for final interview at Irrawaddy Road. And formal attire! Final interview sey, gd luck eh Dayah!!

Gdnight sweetheart!

2009-10-05T14:20:00.002+08:00

Few things I'm very happy is:

My Dad bought new mini HP for me. =) Can say, I fork out abt 60$.
I got my pay. =)
New boyf. =) =)
I'm on my off day!! Triple =)

Work, tiring but earning better even small digits but Im happy! Friends, sorry for neglecting you all, I'll try to find a better day for us to jumpe!

Next thing I aim is, itouch, and I will get it with next month pay.

So awkward to use this mini laptop.. and I also don't really know what to update. So prolly till here. Whoever feel happy for me, thanks alot! :)

2009-06-02T01:30:00.000+08:00

I draft this post for the past few days cos I'm lazy to update more, due to my tireness.

Anw, last fri accompanied Smith for soccer at Tiong Bahru park. He was late and he getting me pissed off with his "on my way, on my way..." & he fetched me with a cab and gave me this evil smile.. He was so sweet to get dinner but I'm too tired for all those things & being like a child, he bought for me Cadbury chocolate. As if he know tt I'm craving for it for all day. Went home quite late but it worth my time afterall. I'm gonna watch you kick tt ball again, soon okay!

Sat:
Had a nice hang out with Yusri & Aisyah, do some catch up right after my work.. It's been some times since we met together, laughing our ass out on stupid lame jokes. Okay, received few texts once done with work. Those from Jerry, Yusri & Smith. As for Yusri, he wanted to hang out at PM for dinner. Went on the same bus and he waited for me to get shower and hit Mac, called Aisyah to come too. Through out the hang out, we laugh so much, talk this and that, counting coins to buy dinner. imagine 1$ coin x 8, soo embarrass tt i got to put thick face to buy it, Yusri kau nye pasal eh! It's like...my first time laughing till tears rolling down.. twice!! God, how can it be so fucking funny when we only had a lame joke...& Yus is full of stupid riddles tt laugh my ass out!

Sun:
It was supposed to be my off day when I received a last min call from Hafiz to replace him since he got dance comp. Actually and frankly I don't want to cos on tt week I got no off day and yet I have to fork out money for lunch & dinner and topup ezlink card, so kesian nye pasal, I went down eventhough I'm tired. Asking help to replace him but seems nobody want too. This part, i really hate tt our part timers are not enough. Next time nomore eh Hafiz, kau nye turn replace aku on 28th okay! Haha!

Mon:
As usual, Monday blues. Not much customers.. Met Luv, since a while we met anw.

Tues:
The best part ever! My off day! :)
The bad part was I'm down with fever & cancelled everything tt we planned. Supposed to spend my day with Smith but cancelled. I really miss him but this time i got to think for myself.. My health, I'm sorry hun. Hide under blanket and curl like a kid..sleeping drives everything away.. Had a solid 3-4 hours sleep, and waking up with my body sweating. Hit shower and had dinner.

I don't care abt what ppl gonna say cos deep inside I'm sure I'm in happy and comfort zone with you.

Okok, stop before it's getting long. Remember I also need sleep. Why? Cos tmrw I'm working..

2009-05-30T01:16:00.002+08:00

How do i get better once i've had the best
You said there's tons of fish in the waters
So the waters i will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in,
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when i'm with him
I am thinking of you thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one who was spending the night
Oh i wish that i was looking into

Your the best and yes i do regret
How i could let myself let you go now,
Now the lessons learned
I touched and i was burned
Oh i think you should know..

(ps: from thinking of you, Katy Perry)

& now i realised...

I see your face I see you eyes
In my heart theres no disguise
You are what I think of
the only one that i truly love

You are the sun of my sky
You are the light of day
You are the music that I play
The reason I wake up everyday

I close my eyes and see your face
Its an image i can't replace
There times when I need space
But your love I always taste

My heart skips a beat
When you pick me up off my feet
You spin me around up off the ground
Twirl and spin in a love we have found.

& nomore mistakes cos in your eyes, i'd like to stay..

More soccer pls, hun! I'm missing you now..

I'm not your slave..

2009-05-28T23:56:00.005+08:00

Striked with minor fever! Damn, due to my work! Been working and extending hours just to gain money..but neglect my health. So many things to think and so little time to do it.

As usual work always give me pressure, it's sucha a relax restaurant actually but when my M come, he will go crazy, stress and he push it everything to staffs when busy! Like:

M: Dayah, bring this bill to 2nd floor..quick..
D: Okay, which table?
M: Look inside...
D: (So lazy want to open mouth and say the table no.)

2nd scene:
When thrs a bell, tt means food are ready to serve but we got to climb to 3rd floor to take the food and bring it down.

M: Dayah, you go up take food.. Let me set the table..
D: ( Put down the table setting and climb the stairs to get food. )
Even he's the nearest to the staff entrance, he still ask me to get it..

3rd scene:
When I key in the orders, he will like:

M: What they want? Let me key in, you set table this this this.....
D: OKAY!
M: Do it now..

& worst, when it's not busy, he asked me to climb the chair and wipe the wall??!! Wipe the glass, tables and test me on hosting, order taking, settings bla bla bla.. Ok, tt one aku passed!

APE AKU APPLIED KEJE JADI BABU KE?? DA LAH GEMOK, SUROH TU SUROH NI! BABI!! GEMOK GEMOK GEMOK!!!

W/o him, I'm fucking relax, nothing to rush and everything even it's full house. Lucky can manage! Pheeww!! & I sold 6 SOD while you?? Z-E-R-O! Nice baby!! Lol!!

Maybe I'm sick bcos of him!

It's been a week since last I met Smith, and I'm missing him like crazy. Wanted to see today but thank God i didn't confirm.. Should be tmrw, right after work. Okay, okay we see tmrw!

Went to Aunt' Nora place right after work for Faris's small bday party. Don't want too but Abg Aki willing to pick me up at workplace. So just rushed down met cousins, grandma, aunties.. talk afew, eat and bam!! Couldn't drag my ass out from the bed, too tired!Luckily Abg Zairi gave a ride home.. & guess what? Tmrw working again! Yeah, with Sue! :)

Gdnight!

2009-05-27T01:29:00.002+08:00

Been busy with work.
Coffee Club @ Holland Village as part timer waitress.
Will be working from 11 am till 6 pm from tmrw till Saturday but can't predict cos manager can change it anytime.

Supposingly I'm off today but I got to go for the training..for better service.
And I got no chance to work with Sue except tmrw. Damn! & I have to make new friends again..
Cos I never get a chance to work with Hafiz.. Haidar, twice! & he do night till closing..
Hmm.. But I don't know, I'm really looking forward to go to work everyday even tho some sucks!
Yeah, can't help it but I got too..

15 mins to 2 am, & I'm still wide awake.. Aidil yet to be home, went out for supper with his friends at Mac.

I'm taking back my love, I've given u too much. ily.

2009-05-18T15:40:00.002+08:00

Like finally, I got a job for myself. Thanks to Hafiz & Haidar for recommending me tt place.

Okay Sue & me went to for the interview few hrs ago and before tt, we even got ourselves lost. She was so confident la kan, jadi we got to walked back for abt 10-15mins. Hahaha! With the umbrella, we even got ourselves wet and still got the cheek to laugh and joke, and I was thinking what if....we got it or not, will it be a good job this and tt..

Upon reaching, tried to call Hafiz to confirm the place & got it! As usual, fill in the form, interview bla bla bla, tmrw 4pm start! YAHOO YAHOO LA!! & we were so happy like we just strike lottery! Lol!!

Met with Thy Bitches few days ago, Thurs! Do some catch up and laugh our ass out! Went to a place whr I don't even know whr and Hafiz panggil 'Suicide valley'.. & I swear I was soo effing scared but I pretended to be cool, but still can't! Last they suggest to sit somewhr for the laughing gas! Hahaha! Next time buat lgk, best gitu!!

I miss my black guy! :(

I can't wait for tmrw! I know, it will be a bit stress and tired and tired.

2009-05-05T17:46:00.002+08:00

Pictures perfect part II

was helping out to give the magic touch on Sue's skin.

together with Dayah's friend.

censored pls.

Alright girls, looking forward for the next party! Was fun right?!! Haha!

Okay tts it! Back to now, went for interview at CPF. & after applied the form we had a small discussion on the job scope. Hopefully, I'll get within a week cos that guy sounds as if I stand a big chance, but the thing is, it's temporary job. Ok, not bad! Rather than no jobs.. :) After 3 months of rotting myself at home, finally and hopefully I'll get it.

It's gonna be over, soon. :)

2009-05-04T16:06:00.002+08:00

Pictures of the short getaway!

Plsss keep your mouth shut and watch.

getting ready.

to be continue, few more to go, kinda busy now!

2009-05-02T19:25:00.003+08:00

Yeah it was hella fun when first time stepped into a club. Especially with ladies, no BFS! :)

Make it short and simple, met Sue and Eida, straight to Jurong East for some purpose. Bought few bags, heels for Eida. Survey 2 hotels and later bought some food and drinks before head to the hotel for book in somewhere Pasir Panjang together with LOVE except Yana for the night preparation. Later Dayah called and wanted to join us at the very last min. Sue's bf also willing to come down and to do what? Take care of our things while we having our wild night. See, mane nk dapat bf yg bole jagekan barang while gf go club..? Lol!! Get dress and everything, manicure and pedicure too, try few clothes on and our bed was in a mess with make up and stuffs.

Was so excited okay, and at the same time I was abit nervous cos what if I bump into my bro's friends, bla bla bla and the most important thing is what if I got kick our or reject?! We are accepted though. :) Ape lagik, dancefloor da mari panggil.. & Sue was like the first to move her body while I'm trying to see ard and konon nye nk step cool. Last2 join Sue! LOL!!

For the 2nd night, was spent at DBL O which is totally boring and crap! haha! Sue and Dayah went home since they got things to settle too. Even worst, I'm and Eida only and she was heavily drunk. So i have to bare with her shits and craps tuh sume. And even more worst she got the cheek to force me bring her to Powerhouse and tt time the clock show 4.03am.. and it will be close anytime soon. But it didn't, almost la. Paid and find her friend.. Finally, settled! Back to hotel and dumped myself at the bed till next day!

And i dare to say, I'm scared to go club with her even with friends ard. Or maybe ni last time!! Cheyy! mcm btol! Seriously it wasn't so bad like me.

Booked out, went to Sue's place and I cancelled my last min date with LOVE and Emi, karaoke session! Damn, too tired and aching everywhr. Thank God, i'm home! :)

Nomore LOVES but just LOVE. I cant beg or stop ppl to stay right, so there's no point doing it if we know it will never happen. Cos we are not happening?? So the suggestion, we got to hit anywhr every weekend with cash in pocket? I want too, but I'm jobless what do you expect now. I can't even pay you.. Okay i accept to stay friends but I'm trully disappointed and angry with you. Sorry, no offence, my blog.

Pics will upload if i got it, if not.. too bad. Lol!

K, youtube is looking for me.

2009-04-27T15:51:00.002+08:00

Forever 21
Data Entry
ICA
CISCO

None of them call me, in fact I'm the one who call, but yet to receive if I'm in. Hmm!! So this is how I feel when ppl out thr struggling to get themselves a job. So hard!!

Okay, Dayah Z asking me to go club this wed at St James, while the other Dayah, she willing to treat Sue and me to DBL O on Thurs?! Like Dayah Eida, KENTAL NYEEE!!! lol!! I'm still considering to go cos I'm really cashless, luckily i received a cheque yesterday and it's from Singtel. I got no idea why Singtel gave it to me cos I'm not a fan/member. Perhaps my Dad.. Okay2 back to club thingy! Yea, so now, Dayah Eida changed plan to go on wed @ St James. Thank God she really want to change, if not I guess I'm not gg. Lol! If she go on Thurs, she got to pay extra cos it's eve of P.H..padehal music same. hahah! Don't understand her at times. Should be gg la kan..

I miss visiting David..almost a week now. :(

Right now with Sue at CC, browsing tru VOG to apply jobs online.

ANW, THY BITCHES I MISS U ALOT!! NYDIAH ESPECIALLY.. MUACCKSSS!

2009-04-20T16:46:00.002+08:00

Hey, my blog is not dead. Still going on but very slow.

Been rotting myself at home with no job, applied poly but never make it even my gpa is good. So right now, I got to find full time permanent job.. All I can say, my holiday was boring, hoping to end soon.

Last Thurs was spent with Smith, out for movie, Revolutionary Roads tt give me question mark at the end of it.. But it was nice anw.. And later we went to Clarke Quay for chill until we bored and headed home. Okay, Sue went to a club with her friends and bf on the same day and I was planning to meet them but they were late.

Actually I feel so awkward to update cos it's been so long since i post something. My blog is getting more and more boring, there's few pics tt I wanted to upload here but I'm too lazy to do so. Later when I'm free! Okay, I'll try to edit here and thr.

Right now all I think is job. That's all! Went a few but all I hear from them were wait for calls. Babi! Babi! Babi!! Still searching online. ICA, WDA, ITE. Errrmmm, HARAM!!!

Okay, now and then Grandma keeps coming to my place, for no reasons. Don't know why la kan, out of sudden..

And now, we want to lepak, I mean Sue and me.

p.s: i still love smith!

2009-03-26T21:42:00.002+08:00

These tears roll down my cheeks
I'm missing every part of you
Your laugh, your smile, and even your smell

You was my second half
I can't comprehend it
I thought I meant something to you
You meant the whole world to me

But now I see it wasn't real
You'll never know the pain you caused
You're not here to see it
Still my heart continues to ache

You caused all of my tears.

2009-03-23T15:15:00.002+08:00

Thanks Dad for tt virgin cellphone! :) When got new phone all we do is godeh2 kan, ya I'm one of them while my Dad bought the black one! Happy alrd!

Been passing my holiday at home, doing nothing. No jobs available, damn! Spend time with LOVES. Tts all.

Nothing much to share, so gdbye!